this prolly will be the first of its kind struggle to write out THIS bad rush of missing him.....
but when you feeeeeeeeeeeeel him this waaaaaay you just gottaaa do what and how you felt like !!!!!!!
a bad bad fall yesterday with a sprained and badly bruised shoulder and wrist you knowwwwww you just knowwwwwww how bad you held away from writing especially with the start of monsoon like that one with the power cut same nite and events after this one PEACE in writing is smthing that can only match up with his presence....
like the only thing that comes closes to that peace n rush of his presence is writing him out.....
cause it almost feels the same cause now when you write you breathe n relive him with each word that comes out.... shutting the eyes away beech beech mein and then to write him out is another kind of smthing that sort of calms the rush away for a bit.....
for the moment !!!!!
its a beautiful high that sort of sets your mind and you free !!
again that only did happen with him....
when you actually gulp down the heavy pain killer just so you could write him out..... after a him that you just felt smtime back......
i swear charie when you feeeel him live him this waaaaaaaaaay the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay the after gets only that much more difficult !!!!!!!!!!!!!
that awakening your actual side kinda feel of him !!!!!!!!!!!!!
then to see that bit of his teaser of the movie is happiness to another level only.....
its how nothing else really matters even as you srtuggle to get down each word write out each word with almost one hand....... smthings nai that one state of mind it puts you in is beyond words and logic......
its this rush of smthing through charlie as you relive him n write out what and how you felt be it the first rain of this years monsoon or when someone just touches you and that same beauuuuutiful feeeeeeeling of being his, literally like he used to say like i own you......
like he owns you !!!!!!!!
though the weirder lows there are these beautiful highs that get you through and HOW !!!!!!!!
but when you feeeeeeeeeeeeel him this waaaaaay you just gottaaa do what and how you felt like !!!!!!!
a bad bad fall yesterday with a sprained and badly bruised shoulder and wrist you knowwwwww you just knowwwwwww how bad you held away from writing especially with the start of monsoon like that one with the power cut same nite and events after this one PEACE in writing is smthing that can only match up with his presence....
like the only thing that comes closes to that peace n rush of his presence is writing him out.....
cause it almost feels the same cause now when you write you breathe n relive him with each word that comes out.... shutting the eyes away beech beech mein and then to write him out is another kind of smthing that sort of calms the rush away for a bit.....
for the moment !!!!!
its a beautiful high that sort of sets your mind and you free !!
again that only did happen with him....
when you actually gulp down the heavy pain killer just so you could write him out..... after a him that you just felt smtime back......
i swear charie when you feeeel him live him this waaaaaaaaaay the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay the after gets only that much more difficult !!!!!!!!!!!!!
that awakening your actual side kinda feel of him !!!!!!!!!!!!!
then to see that bit of his teaser of the movie is happiness to another level only.....
its how nothing else really matters even as you srtuggle to get down each word write out each word with almost one hand....... smthings nai that one state of mind it puts you in is beyond words and logic......
its this rush of smthing through charlie as you relive him n write out what and how you felt be it the first rain of this years monsoon or when someone just touches you and that same beauuuuutiful feeeeeeeling of being his, literally like he used to say like i own you......
like he owns you !!!!!!!!
though the weirder lows there are these beautiful highs that get you through and HOW !!!!!!!!
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