Same way!

you still remember coming back home with that feeeeeeling still there that strong he still does love you and yet dosnt know he does.....

and that feeeeeeling that surity of his love for you he himself proved it right in that meet after he comes back from kashmir.....

it was like that one meet too when you felt his love the strongest and the waaaaaaaaay he made sure to make you feel live his love for you.... like intentionally making you feel he still loves you.....

just like he used to say feel the most love in the most pain or smthing like that !!!!!!11

and you did pain the most and the love the mostest too....

soooooooooooooooo yahhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to this morning like you just see him with his face that close to yours and you try to touch his face or smthing and the way he just looks at you pushes your hand first and then pushes you away saying go man.....

that one word that tone of his voice the waaaaay that complete moment shakes you up and you wake up.....

it was the worst feeeeeling that you have woken up with in years now.....

like the first time ever smhing like this !!!!!!!!

the way it makes you that restless that weird like donno what to do how to make it better for yourself.....

get off and head out for a walk without even changing or anything.....

just that neeed to find that peace immediately.....

and the way with his music this memory is all you could feel.....

cause it felt almost the same thing.....

again when you lose that sense of what are you doing !!!!!!!!!