its not bout how you are born and who you become after...... there is that one transitional time that happens in everyone of our lives...
that one transition that changes it all for you...
be it bad for some or for some just that lucky...
and lucky was and has been for you !!!
ayyaaaaaaa Lucky !!!!!!!!!!!
his Lucky also i say !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sooooooooooooooooooooooooo yahhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!
that one transitional phase was when he did come back in your life...
yes, thats what and how it has always felt like right from the very start !!
like he just reentered your life again....
moment after moment the more you be with him the more you lived him to much after too the chats the talks like it was only bringing you closer to the actual you that you are meant to be.....
it was in a way settng the real you free.....
be it in terms of music movies stuff that you like times that you like places that you prefer now or for that matter just smthing this simple as being on your own...
when your mom smtimes used to ask you why be up till morning after a complete days work like you could rather get a better sleep and look less tired and all that.....
when you listen to things like these its that thing that love of his to be with your own.... to just be !!
cause thats how and when you connect the most with your real self...
you could be doing anything or doing nothing at all but just to be on your own....
and no wonder now that love did turn out to be his way of love also why loves being on his own lonely solitude call it whatever fancy or otherwise.....
like maybe now thats what he prefers and loving him and as you cant live with him being on your own did soon become your way of life too.....
like you would rather be on your own and feeel him live him in your mind in your moments than be with somebody else and then still miss him....
ruining too many lives expectations at once....
with it this way of life now.....
this love for the nites as much as now writing at this hour after really long cause you again take the day off today too mind just tooo free to work.....
that much love for nites and writing at that hour that you almost turn the room darkest now just so you could write out with that slow vibe of the nites.....
you were different and definitely not you before him.....
the waaaaay him in your life and with his love did transform you away and HOW !!!!!!!!
every lil thing in your every day that beauutifully laced by him.... and anything to everything to do with him....
when after years you notice that another change when you had to go buy smthing and realize you had to size up for it.....
his words again when he mentions bout smthing and it actually helps again dammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmn when you cant just write out stuff for censors......
and through winter skin issues and you had to switch to this daily habit of pooora cream lagana and all......
and finally realize it did work what he said....
like yesterday when you realize bout the size that very sec that one smile on your face and then that same need to hide away from your own mind.....
its that beautiful feeeeling charlie..... to just find him his words anything to with him in the lilst of moments in the most personal thoughts of your mind specially with his absence now.....
its that thing when you have someone in your life all the time it is but obvious that you connect relate them with anything and evrything... but when theres a distance an absence like this one and yet to feel them in any lilst of random moments is smthing else !!
that bit of beautiful smthing.......
making you realize how much of them you become as the love grows...
how much of them does involve dissolve away in your everyday moments !!
lilst of moments bhi....
like these moments were the good stuff like making you feel that side of his presence that you keep your mind off !!!!!!!
knowing just knowing whyyyyyyyy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that one transition that changes it all for you...
be it bad for some or for some just that lucky...
and lucky was and has been for you !!!
ayyaaaaaaa Lucky !!!!!!!!!!!
his Lucky also i say !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sooooooooooooooooooooooooo yahhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!
that one transitional phase was when he did come back in your life...
yes, thats what and how it has always felt like right from the very start !!
like he just reentered your life again....
moment after moment the more you be with him the more you lived him to much after too the chats the talks like it was only bringing you closer to the actual you that you are meant to be.....
it was in a way settng the real you free.....
be it in terms of music movies stuff that you like times that you like places that you prefer now or for that matter just smthing this simple as being on your own...
when your mom smtimes used to ask you why be up till morning after a complete days work like you could rather get a better sleep and look less tired and all that.....
when you listen to things like these its that thing that love of his to be with your own.... to just be !!
cause thats how and when you connect the most with your real self...
you could be doing anything or doing nothing at all but just to be on your own....
and no wonder now that love did turn out to be his way of love also why loves being on his own lonely solitude call it whatever fancy or otherwise.....
like maybe now thats what he prefers and loving him and as you cant live with him being on your own did soon become your way of life too.....
like you would rather be on your own and feeel him live him in your mind in your moments than be with somebody else and then still miss him....
ruining too many lives expectations at once....
with it this way of life now.....
this love for the nites as much as now writing at this hour after really long cause you again take the day off today too mind just tooo free to work.....
that much love for nites and writing at that hour that you almost turn the room darkest now just so you could write out with that slow vibe of the nites.....
you were different and definitely not you before him.....
the waaaaay him in your life and with his love did transform you away and HOW !!!!!!!!
every lil thing in your every day that beauutifully laced by him.... and anything to everything to do with him....
when after years you notice that another change when you had to go buy smthing and realize you had to size up for it.....
his words again when he mentions bout smthing and it actually helps again dammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmn when you cant just write out stuff for censors......
and through winter skin issues and you had to switch to this daily habit of pooora cream lagana and all......
and finally realize it did work what he said....
like yesterday when you realize bout the size that very sec that one smile on your face and then that same need to hide away from your own mind.....
its that beautiful feeeeling charlie..... to just find him his words anything to with him in the lilst of moments in the most personal thoughts of your mind specially with his absence now.....
its that thing when you have someone in your life all the time it is but obvious that you connect relate them with anything and evrything... but when theres a distance an absence like this one and yet to feel them in any lilst of random moments is smthing else !!
that bit of beautiful smthing.......
making you realize how much of them you become as the love grows...
how much of them does involve dissolve away in your everyday moments !!
lilst of moments bhi....
like these moments were the good stuff like making you feel that side of his presence that you keep your mind off !!!!!!!
knowing just knowing whyyyyyyyy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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