First rains of monsoon...!

to the very day of the first rains of monsoon....

out with a stylist for her shoppig before she goes bck to chennai.....

and she wnated to visit the shilparam.... and the sec you are there the clouds thsi beautifully dark and that smell in the air secs before the rain....

stand in the middle of nowhere looking up smelling awaaaay and the way it strats to rain.....

like you could hear her asking you to come and all but that need to just be up the volume of his music and just be living the rains with eyes shut and looking up....

just the sound feeel n smell of the rains and with his music playing it was beyond beautful !!!

and for the first time in all these years of monsoon and his absence this was teh first time you actually felt him to be with you..... like you could that strongly feel the moment like he was there....

as wierd as it sounds now witing out the exact feel of that moment in words now but exactly what and how you felt in that moment.....

like he was there with you in that very moment.....

as you open your eyes n look around people running for covers and the stylist finally having left in the shilparam it wasjust you in the midle of nowhere and that moment get back with your moment shut the eyes away wind getting wilder rains that beauuuuuuuutifully with that much wind.....

its happiness to another level only charlie cause in the first time in years did you feel like you lived that first rain of this season with him...

like he actually was ther e!!!!!!!!!!!

weirder as it sounds now but again just what and how it made you feel !!!!!!!!!!

finaly she calls you again get n and this one side ths house like dome with flags under and that him on your mind still.... when you find that someone one someone in the world for you that becomes your home no matter where you are who you are with or what you are doing.....

that moment was for you just that when you lived him with you in his absence in that very moment of first rains.... finding him finding your home on the move i say !!

to much after buying mangoes and every season every time you spell mango a zillin other memoris of his hsi versions of love for you !!!!!!!!!

and just around these tiles and that same feeeel !!

not going back to how teh siht of those tiles make you feel now....

cause mind now again is currently in a happy place and you dont wanna shift that for now.....

how beautifuly strange that moment felt like you stll got no clue bout....

and that wait then to wrie out that feeeeeeeeeel how it made you feel like and once home finally see there is no electircy....

that wiat through the nite where there was generator still but you wait with your laptop for the power to be restored and wiating waiting morning it was when your mom wakes you up with that question how could you not be in a room where ther ewas still fan and power on cause of generator and instead wait beside thelaptop with no fan......

and that in the literaly wierder sense wettest you wokeup.... like you looka t your own state in this summer almost monsoon term and realize you truly truly goottaaaa be this mad  to be in poooora love....

or else i say its not the poora love....

whoo hai nai line kuch hooosh nai rehtaaa kuch kbar nai rehtaaaa insaan looove mein insaan nai rehtaaa !!!!!!!!

hauuu kyukiii uneee howlaaa in ur case howliiiii bana rehtaaaaaaaa !!!!!!

waaah waaaah !!!!!!!!!

his songs i swear !!!!!!!!

hosh waloooooooooo koooo kabar kyaaaaa bekudiii kyaaa cheeez hai ayyyaaaaaaaaaa useeeeeeee looooove kijyeeeee fir samajyeeeeeeeee zindagiiiiii kyaaaa cheeezhai !!!!!!!!!!!