like last few months speically after this block and for this longest time of silence and not seeing him did make you realize bout this fact - diff wants in life.....
his and yours....
he would rather be on his own with those once in a while kind of doses of love than to have a forever kinda love.....
like he prefers his own company the most like you know be alone and yet be content with being alone....
like being alone and lonely are two different things.....
and him being him that he is and no wonder loves his company the most !!
like who wouldnt i say - His company after all !!!!!!!!!!!!
and you being the kind that you are..... no wonder also maintains that distance with you knowing just exactly how you are.... knowing you the most and more than you do yourself he makes sure to maintain that distance.... cause knowing you he also knows his presence and priority in your life......
your kind is to sleep to him and wake up with that peace of mind in your eyes that surity in your eyes just before you open them that you will see him first soon as you do.... that one assurance of knowing that no matter what this one person wont let go of you...
like you know be sure to sleep beside and be that sure youll wake up to for the rest of your life, is your kind of love !!
and having lived this much of missing this one hypothetical thing as you live this feel of the moment now having msised him this bad first the few nites you would end up not sleeping and just living him watching him sleeep and then waiting for him to wake up.... like not miss out on a sec of him trying to make up for all this absence of years now.....
how beautifullly hypothetical and random of a thought to feel.....
mind and heart i tell you the weirdest of organs in the body !!
both of them have a mind and will of their own...
soooooo yahhh !!!!!!!!
to understand this thing bout different wants in life and just accept the way it is and just be wih it.....
so mucb be with it ki when you come across the news of the tofan vayu few days back in bombay you refrain from writing to him or asking if he ws okay cause of the promise you made to him and yourself most importantly.....
and instead pray for him to be safe.... and put a news alert on your fone cause you dont fllow news otherwise and it was only aftr a day or two of the cyclone alert do you eget to know of the news.....
and this time put a news alert on the fone just so you know.... this morning the news of earthquake and again that same struggle to stay away and then end up praying he is good......
there have been a zillion mentions bout acceptance of the situations but when you realize how different your idea of life with him is bout you sort of make peace with how and what it is like.....
knowing and accepting your flaws with where you lack and then making peace with what you have of him now....
his and yours....
he would rather be on his own with those once in a while kind of doses of love than to have a forever kinda love.....
like he prefers his own company the most like you know be alone and yet be content with being alone....
like being alone and lonely are two different things.....
and him being him that he is and no wonder loves his company the most !!
like who wouldnt i say - His company after all !!!!!!!!!!!!
and you being the kind that you are..... no wonder also maintains that distance with you knowing just exactly how you are.... knowing you the most and more than you do yourself he makes sure to maintain that distance.... cause knowing you he also knows his presence and priority in your life......
your kind is to sleep to him and wake up with that peace of mind in your eyes that surity in your eyes just before you open them that you will see him first soon as you do.... that one assurance of knowing that no matter what this one person wont let go of you...
like you know be sure to sleep beside and be that sure youll wake up to for the rest of your life, is your kind of love !!
and having lived this much of missing this one hypothetical thing as you live this feel of the moment now having msised him this bad first the few nites you would end up not sleeping and just living him watching him sleeep and then waiting for him to wake up.... like not miss out on a sec of him trying to make up for all this absence of years now.....
how beautifullly hypothetical and random of a thought to feel.....
mind and heart i tell you the weirdest of organs in the body !!
both of them have a mind and will of their own...
soooooo yahhh !!!!!!!!
to understand this thing bout different wants in life and just accept the way it is and just be wih it.....
so mucb be with it ki when you come across the news of the tofan vayu few days back in bombay you refrain from writing to him or asking if he ws okay cause of the promise you made to him and yourself most importantly.....
and instead pray for him to be safe.... and put a news alert on your fone cause you dont fllow news otherwise and it was only aftr a day or two of the cyclone alert do you eget to know of the news.....
and this time put a news alert on the fone just so you know.... this morning the news of earthquake and again that same struggle to stay away and then end up praying he is good......
there have been a zillion mentions bout acceptance of the situations but when you realize how different your idea of life with him is bout you sort of make peace with how and what it is like.....
knowing and accepting your flaws with where you lack and then making peace with what you have of him now....
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