Sunday 23 June 2019

Blinking tailights...

from one moment to the other....

that one beauuuuuuuty and smell of the rains...

like every visual you come across as it rains and the more Him it brings along !!!!!!!!

and HOW !!!!!!!!!

from there to fill in the fuel...

where now almost every petrol bunk takes you back to that one adooorable moment of his possessiveness that you live for the first time after bup...

him putting the lights on the face of that other car driver as he felt the guy or uncle it was looking through the car.... just like back then when he would see first who was walking or standing close to you even much before you could see notice or realize......

like he would always be looking around you making sure you were safe and you that lost in eveything him that you always alwaaaaays failed to notice that around you or make sure you were safe and at  distance from the crowd.... maybe it was that thing knowing he was there and like nothing else really mattered or needed attention..... that one feeeeling when he is there you are the safest you could ever be... ever been !!!!!!!

soooooooooooooooooooooo yahhhhhhhhhhh from where to where only again !!!!!!!!!!

at the petrol and you lost in that beauty of the rains as you keep looking around for moments to live him more......

and this one car backing up n then moving a lil away and the lights blinking.....

again smthing you live him with everytime you see a tail light blinking of some car even be it in the jams.....

the waaaaaaay it always takes you back to  that one moment......

almost close to bup and you stand there watching him move his car and then wait and look at you through that rear view of his with his car tail lights blinking on n off.....

the waaaaaaay he is just there cause he wanted to drop you home spend that lil more time with you and his sister wanted to be with you.... like you did sense smthing was def wrong the waay he asks you to wait and have dinner the puran poli with him like he was coming up with things to do that could make him and you stay longer.....

to that moment just before heading out he tells you that he'll drop you off and you tell him you cant cause his sister wanted to be with you...

and that one nod of his with that one diff smile the waaaaaaaay it felt different then itself.... like he jus missed out on that moment with you......

when he that badly wanted to be with you !!!!!!!

cause he knew what he was going to do next the step he was bout to take.... that was going to change your life change you forever !!!!!!!!

like that clsoe to that one step and him wanting more to be with you as much as he could......

 to the way he just comes that close to your ear and tells you he dosnt want to but has to..... and stays there where you just close your eyes and live his presence closest to you that day for the first time...... cause he was being aaway from you causeof his sister and eveyone being around...... also that day was only the start of the distance that was soon going to come after !!!!!!

from being that distant to that close to you that day.... the waaay he just stays even after saying that for a bit.....

jut cause of his presence that close to you living him that close you dont really undertsand or realize what he just said....

soon leaves gets in the car starts off and then stops again looking at you through the rear view lights blinking on n off......

that one moment that whole vibe of the moment is smthing you cant possibly get over ever !!!!!!!!!

like there was THAT MUCH love in that one moment !!!!!!!!!!!!

like you oculd just feeeeeeeeel it........ there was that thing of him moving away like you could sense the distance but didnt ever know thought or even slightest hint of what was coming next !!!!!!!!

not even the slightest hint !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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