Moments!!!!

 Of all the moemnts something as random as that moment with his back facing towards trying to feed you something has made your heart this THIS happy right now......

Just to live that closeness of his after years that way the way it brings back that chocolate room memory with him...

His usual love to make you get something he loved he takes you to this place with his sister in the front with him and you were sitting right behind him...and this chicken something he orders for and there was a specif way of eating it and he turns and takes your foil plate thing and shows you how to eat and then opens his mouth asking you to open yours and feeds you and then watches your expression cause you loved it and then suddenly realises his sister's presence as you ask him to feed her too in Ishara soon after brings his one hand from the side feeling your feet away and then holds your hand for a bit and looks at you through the rear view...

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa one thing to the other this heart right now how HOWWWWWWWWEEEEEEE much love did he absolutely filled you up with nai!!!!!!!

This one sudden feeeeel right now THAAAAAAAAT much love he completely filled you up with lasting for all these years now...to a night for a night like this one too!!!!!!

This heart this feeeeeeeeel this missing this LOOOOOVE for him right now!!!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

This missing!!!!!!!!

He was that close THAAAAAAAAT close just mins ago!!!!!!!

His hand his back his arms his entire presence that THAT close to you!!!!!!

Sound of his voice still this very clear talking something away!!!!!!!!!!!

This one feeeeeeeeeel right now of the 2009 like in your mind right now you are back there in that very moment living his love for you away and howwwwweeee!!!!!!

He used to love you THAT MUCH!!!!!!!!!!

On nights like these with a missing like this sometimes it all still feels like one of the most beauuuuuutiful dreams of your life I swear!!!!!!!

2009

 There are moments and then there are string moments like these where the sound of him talking to you made you feel like you were back in 2009 same phone calls that tone of his voice still this clear ayyaaaaaaaaa even as you write now shut your eyes to relive that voice of his and it's still this clwar.........

His back that close to your face like you could literally holdddd him away that THQT close to you.......that close to your face in that moemnt......

Ayyqqaaaaaaaaaaaaa this mind right now soooo high soooooooooooo high on him!!!!!!!!!!!

Moments!!!!

 A moment like this one after years!!!!!!

Not sure what why was this even!!!!!

Working on some designs you fall asleep on the couch itself.....and this sound of him like literally in your ears that close all you could hear was him talking whispering for really long and you keep replying hmmhmm like he was talking something and nwvore you even make sense of it him in this white and blue big bold plaid shirt not his purana one this was different close to his dining table and you are sitting there......and with his back towards you that close to your face he feeds something in your mouth with his hands and itbws something not sure but you just hold his hand and just live the details of his hand away and the way he still was talking something to somebody before him and you holding his hand adoring him away......to that second when he tries to hold your lips with his hand and you wake up now with your own hand on your lips.......

Even seconds after the waking up you somehow could still hear him talk something like literally chatting away with you it's that state charloe where you are still in sleep still in that zone of that moemnt and trying to make sense of the change around like where is he now he was right here kind moment it was......

Him looking gorgeoyssssssssssssss even peeche se like you couldn't see his face but his back his arms his hand iin yours that same tone of his voice from back then the way he usee to talk to you......

That very same tone of his voice after yearssssssss!!!!!!!

Ayyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this state of you right right nowwwwww!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS sound...!

 At his place his ramantapur one one of those post bup meets in his fav kurta on you the wakeup sid one...

This one moment just before getting ready to leave him sitting on the couch as you tie your hair back in a ponytail one look through the mirror him still watching you...and the way his arms move as you look at him through the mirror that instant pulllllllll and walk back towards him...the way his body moves and you slowly sit over his lap with arms around him for the first time that way...holding him that way sitting on his lap for the first time.......him looking you in the eye that beauuutifully that one beauuuuuutiful longing in his eyes in that one state of his and the waaaaay he takes the hair tie off your hair and runs his fingers through your hair opening it back again...

That one feeeeeeeeeel same from those drives with him his hand in your hair as you sleep on his lap....

This one sound that one memory to the other memory...

It's in those very moemnts one after the other he did become your most beautiful Home...

He did become the Home of your heart and soul...!

This one sound on loop and the way it's bringing back that one memory from his room one of those first times yet again...

Some days some sounds some memories and this feel this you it has transformed in and HOWEE!!!!!!!!

Sound of life!!

 Some sounds nai bassssssss hits differently!!!!!!

Like you just wanna spend the night admiring him away living him away writing him away just to live the whole feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of loving him away…

This usual topic argument with mom and head out for the first coffee at this new place all by yourself and this artist track plays Shazam it away and it was a local artist one song after the other here you are back home now laying in bed just listening to this one unplugged version on loop not a single word understood and yet a zillion feeeeels and moments of him relived again……right here in this very moment!!!!

Some sounds nai this WHOLE VIBE THEY CARRY!!!!!!!

This beauuuuuuutiful missing right now!!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaa one gorgeous GORGEOUS human I say!!!!!!! 

The sound…!

 It was a very very different need yesterday last night to this very moment right now……in sleep almsot and this sudden sound of his voice and that same need same strong need like last night to just talk to him to just hear the sound of his voice…to hear him to just speak all out to him!!!!!

This very VERY strong need after years like there’s everyday missing and this ones this strong after long to just speak to him hear him talk breathe any sound just to hear him to speak anything to everything him…….

Like can’t stress enough how strong this urge feels like since yesterday even seconds back now too like maybe it was him in sleep right here sometime back saying something and now this same strong need to hear him for real right now!!!!!!!

And still in sleep get on your mail account to read any text of his and this one from march 2018 and this feeeeeeeeel cause it’s not his texts you read you literally hear him in his voice say those things to you……like you could literally hear him say those things to you and not just read them…

This very feeeeeeling been feeling very differently since yesterday…

Singaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you only knew!!!!!!!!!

Moments!!

 Some moments that one dream always to see his name on his work credits!!!!!

Right from that evening at opera when he shares that with you it's always been your dream too...

His recent work mind blowing the color tone of the ad the crispness of the edit the sound throughout the video his hands on his work HIS MIND in his work some moments nai pure love.......not just for his work but to just imagine his way of doing that work that version of him too absolute LOOOOVE I say!!!!!

It just makes your heart and soul SUPER SUPER happy and proud like one proud Momma!!!!!! Wanting badly to pat his back away kinda strong urge today apart from the other many things...

Some things nai just can't help it...! Proudest Momma lately!!!!!! His one work after the other, the other ones recently for other reasons and this one purely for the art and magic of visuals and his mind...

Like theres your work on one side which has been super stressful lately and only wish it gets a lil easier so you can have some time for yourself and then there's a moment like this of HIS work that becomes your ultimate source of happiness and pride I swear...

To that need to save his work on Youtube and you search everywhere possible don't find it and just watch it over again on his repost!!

From that looooooove for his photography to his work being featured on Nikon one longest journey of wishes I swear...