Sound of music...!

 THE one track that sums everything up bout your moments and memories with him at Opera it has HAS to be this one track moments in love and HOWEEEE!!!!!!

Like you intentionally make sure to rarely very rarely give this a listen and right now in this moemnt teary eyed goosebumps on the skin is exactly the reason why you avoid listening to this one mainly...

And tonight just felt the need to after a very long time, THIS feeeeeeeling that you are feeling right now eyes shut lights out this one track playing on loop now and you are back there in Opera in his car and him right there just before turning the car speakers out just so the lights go out that one stare of his that one moemnt of him looking you in the eye and that one smile that one moemnt before living the rush of love that one moment still this clear right now as you relive it now... to relive him to relive his details including his touch scent of him the waaaaaay his arms used to feel around you wrap you all with him any to every lil detail of him right now rushing through you!!!!!!!

HIM just HIM the sound the beat the soul the life and heart of your life I say...!

TBIS NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Moments!!

 With a gym right next to your studio one week into it and today after decade using gloves for weight training and this immediaaaaaaaaaaate feeeeeeeeeel when you put on the gloves... HIM!!!!!!!

Him forcing you to use gloves for weight training and giving you his gloves one very adorably chewed out by lucky and still insisting you use it...also mentioning away how he really liked the pinkness and softness of your palms after shaking hands with you the first time...

That too still as friends him introducing you to the world of doing weights with gloves on instead of blistering the palm away.....showing you his big blisters on palm and saying how much he loved his hands that way more rugged and to peal the dry skin off the blisters but not on you...

Today standing there watching yourself in the mirror with the gloves on and missing him away reliving him away from those moments at the gym...

Eyes still searching for him in corners of the gym!!!!

Strange are the ways of the heart I say even after years decade it's been...!

One of those!!

 It's one of those nights!!

Waking upto THAT much him and this feeeeeel now working on some interior thing!!

Truly truly moments like these where your absolute happiness lies in...

Finally your first ever proper commercial store that you signed few days back and now working on interiors and stuff it comes to this one dream that one himcoming and this feeeeeel it overloads you with is beyond everything...

This mind today and this level of missing him away...!

Like you are happy excited with the store and related stuff but it's that feeeeel charlie like there's happiness and there's that absolute level of Khushi that makes you that happy that you actually feel crazy happy like crazily insanely happy kinda Khushi that was your this morning when you wake up from that dream of his...

Things moments that always make you re realise certain things time and again...

Someone means that much to you means the world away but it also is not necessary that you meant the same way for them too...and strangely somehow that fact doesn't change your way of loving them...

Even with time, it somehow doesn't change a thing for your love and loving them...!

To back to now that you are working at, saving the first few moments away of your commercial store FINALLY!!!!!

Youdays!!

 Sunday mornings like these !!!!!

A sleep full of him a waking up to your most looooved red halo over him.....a race thing but something's you can never really understand thewaaaaays they can make you happy away!!!!!!

It's just been such a moooood today!!!!!

A day full of toooo much missing with all the plannings on hold for just today it's been suchaaaaaaaaaaaa beauuutoful himday today...

This level of missing today...now this hour of his Fink playing in your ears a glass of icey gin lights dim working on some designs this mooood this state of mind with the strings playing...

The drives the first time feeeeeeeling him away with just your eyes... Fink does this every single time!!!!!!!

The waaaaaaaaaaaaays it brings back those initial days of drowning in love with him without even realising it...

Like he moves around the gym you loooooived watching him he would sit down on the steps before the store below the gym with his car door open just sitting there and you waiting outside for the auto, sometimes skipping the auto stopping by too, cause you just loooooived living him away... Him on phone sometimes sometimes just looking at something sitting there alone on the steps...

And that one pull that one wait that one hold to just be there and live him away to the sound of fink playing in his car...to those late night calls with him with same fink playing in the background in his room...

Even that day first time in his house and then upstairs and he runs to his room and playsfink on his desktop and comes out smiling away and you show in Ishara from listening to it on his phone call to actually being in his place and listening there in his presence....

It's the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay the feeeeeels the mind would sync that beauuuuuutifully without having to say a word...

Singmiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the absolute the complete COMPLETE heart n soul of your LIFE!!!!!!!!!!

Rush!!!

 The sound and beat of teddy swims just made HIM rush flow swim through you and howwwwweeeeeee!!!!!

Whatttaaaaaaaaa accidental his kinda psssssydelic sound find this has been THIS him rush right through you nowwwweeeeee!!!!!!!! 

Dancing flowing moving missing him away in a room with no lights!!!!!!!

A second!!

 That one second of happiness in the morning seeing your most loved red cirle circling away!!!! 

It’s some moments nai only when you live them do you realise how much these lil things do really matter and make that big of a difference to you…

It’s only when you live them do you realise the importance of it…

Priorities…!

Beyond normalcy!!

 One of those days when you miss him beyooond normalcy and too many isharas of random events through the day connecting the missing and that beautifully worsening the missing away...

Been one of those days of missing today waaaaaay beyond your everyday missing him...

July 26 concert in his Versova of all artists had to be Niladri and you just cantttttttt wait!!!!!!!

Some days nai!!!!!!!!! That one wait to live some moemnt of his some thing anything on his story doesn't happen been too long...

Right from the very start today...!