Call it maaaaaagic...!

 If there is any magic exists for real any list spark of it too it lies in moennts like these!!!!!

Absolute moment of magic morning morning!!!!!

Waking up to him that early as too much work to take care for the day and that peace of your mornings living him and then having coffee with some Instagram personal!!

And this maroof artist that you love the mini documentary posts and this one had a beautiful post about weaving and stuff but the song the songgggggg was an instant him pull to you...

That instant pullllllll Piya tose Naina lag re absolutely him poooooraaaaaa ka poora and that one feeeeeeel.....playing it on loop and then live him on Instagram and there was your most loooved halo over him mom's fone sneak and it was bout his blue canvas bts and the music of it another track from the same ditto movie guide...

What are the chances!!!!!!

What are the co incidences!!!!!

That one feeeeeeeeeel that beauuuuuutifully in-sync...

Some visuals some sounds some moennts that thing bout apart yet moments together lived...

The way it also brings back that feeeeel of his movie, the day he wrapped up the shoot of blue canvas he messages you that very morning after unblocking you...like he had wrapped up very early in the morning and later through the day he texts you something's nai...

Like the mind on a flashback zone now!!!!!!!

Morning morning this himzoned away like on an absolute HimFlight mode literalllllly...!

Waking ups!!!

 Mornings like these waking ups like these and you time and again re realise how it's the most loooooooved moment of your day...to wake up to him first thing first visual first face of your mornings!!

That peaceful happy rush kinda start to the day......

It's that immense looooove to live every detail of him to start the day with... Like this part of your day is yours alone like the most you you feel at, the rest of it just goes on as per everybody else's !!

Miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

Moments!!!!

 There is one place everywhere charloe where you’ve pictured him with you or just waiting for him there walking to you like it has happened a zillion times over the years and concu is one such place where you’ve pictured him with you just right beside you but this dream today felt different to any of the ones till date…

This felt like just bumping into him randomly and then holding that umbrella for him as it was raining heavy and then that fear of upsetting him and you try to walk away from him and the waaaaaay he leans over that close to you and asks you to wait instead…….

That one vision of him in that black shirt that real like it’s been happening very often late seeing him in places imagining away day dreaming away but aaj ka felt very different….

To this meeting with a friends sister client kinda coffee meet and they were playing Shaan there and ayyyaaaaaa that one immediate mindlane switch I say ziooooop bolke to everything him and smiling away amidst discussion and you on your way out just to live him and ther was this same hibiscus color that was in his Ramanthapur house back then…..

That very unique mauvy pink flower almost with deep pink stripes and you see that and stand by it and he mentions bout his mom planting those and his dad asks you to pluck a flower if you wanted to and you instead tell uncle you just like watching flowers not plucking them and him right beside you hits his head against yours before his dad and says papa howli hai ine……

And the second his dad goes back inside he looks you in the eye and starts running towards the stairs to his room knowing your urgency to hit his head back again…..that adoooorably chuckling away saying kitttaaa control Kari nai tu to hit back before dad…..

To just run after him to his room and watch him look at you chuckle away it’s that feeeeeeeling charlie you just can’t love someone and that’s it you find a zillion moments over and over that make you realise my goddddd I love this face this smile this presence this sound of voice I looooooooooove himmmmm!!!!!!

Like you know it hitting you like it hit the first time falling in love for the first time happening over and over again with that same very face!!!!!

That day standing there watching that particular color of hibiscus and living that moment with him there was that kind of realisation mannnnnnn it’s beee years and yet I loooooove that one face!!!!!

To this morning standing there at concu watching him walk towards you reliving the gym moemnt in the dream like from that walk to this walk and then to live him after waking up!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the LOOOOOOOOOVE & HEART of your life I swear!!!!!!!

Absoluuuuute looooooove!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaa some moments even reliving now as you write!!!!!

Another one of your most looooved things bout him the way after hitting your head with his in his car that wait in him for you to come closer and strike back !!!!!!!

His eyes that smiiiiiiile of his that expression on him his arms and chest wider open like letting you come closer !!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

 

Youdazeddd!!!!!

 This waking up today after a late night to eqrly morning missing him away today and you wake up pretty late in the afternoon!!!!

That one night of compete him with this first time at concu you were just bout to step out and walk towards your car and it starts to rain heavy suddenly and mohammad comes with running with the umbrella and that very second you see him walking towards you looking down on the floor...

That one feeeeweeeeeeeel waiting for him to look up just to recheck I'd it really was him and not your imagination again and as he slowly starts to look up it really was him......take the umbrella for him and walk towards him and the waaaaaay he holds your arm with umbrella just walking with you towards concu and you stop there and just bout to step out again back to your car and the waaaaay he slowly leans closer to your ear and says rukna...and you wake up cause his voice him breathing that close to your ear was all that real......like he actually was there cause it was that real him in that black shirt his style walking smiling looking down like he knew you'll be there and will come for him...

Thatstrong feeeeeeeeeel today as you still were in that sleep confusion like you actually saw him like he actually spoke to you that close to your ear and that need to live him and get on WhatsApp forgetting he wasn't there and then to notice he was back ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa that heart of yours in that very moment like actually turn holding the phone touching him away in the picture smiling whispering talking something to his picyure on the dp cause that's how bad you missed him in that moemnt!!!!!

It was suchaaaaaaaaaaaaaa beautiful start to the day today charlie I swear nothing else makes me that happy the way just living him away does hearing him does his voce his pree nce ayyyaaaaaaaaaa meraaaaa pooooora complete heart I swear!!!!!!

Like this constant smile glued on your face with some work to finish today in the evening and it's been raininng this mind today this beauuuuuutifullu high on him gin aaaaj tho light laga charkie that highhhh on him......

Like you just can't stop smiling the waaaaay it felt like you actually met him cause it was you from today in shirt and jeans and him from today looking that gorgeous in that sexy black shirt and your heart goes ayyyaaaaaaa meraaaaaa miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa it is!!!!!!!

Through oout the day his voice rushing through you rukna even alone now with this blonde series playing elite something and you are working on some design changes and suddenly that need to shut it all play his music and just be and suddenly you start smiling again relcijng that moemnt from concu!!!!!!

This weirdly madly confusingly happy you it's been since the start of the day all thanks to singaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only you are beingissed today if he oly ineeww!!!!!!!!!

Saving this high away!!!!!!!!!

Waking ups!!!!

 Ayyyaaaaaaaaa to just still almost wake up still in bed and that usual habit to see him on WhatsApp and you get on still sleepy and there he is !!!!!!! Him in all his gloryyyyy and beauuuuuutiiiii!!!!!!

Backkkkkk!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaa the heart the poooooraaaaaa ka POOOOOOOORA heart of your eyes and life!!!!!!!

There is nothing said it before can say it over godzillion times I've n over there is nothing in the world that makes you happy happpppppoy like this the way anything Him does...

To just live him first thing only thing soon as your eyes even see or make sens of the world to just live him live that feeeeeeeeeel of him ayyyaaaaaaaaa the absolute hearttttt of your life HIM!!!!!!!

Deeeeewanq huaaaaa paaagallll!!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One of those!!

 Post movie in his car takes his ipod and that one smiiiiiiiile of his and you knew something up and he plays this very track iktara...

There were many other beautiful tracks from the same but this one felt had felt different special already...

Like something in you had just shifted that strongly like from watching the movie to watching him living him in the theatre itself from that up-close and him knowing you were watching him instead of the movie that one smile on him he doesn't look at you or say something just that side eye and that one smile on him...cause he had insisted pls let this be this one moment you give me before getting married or going forward...

That one movie with him, eventually did change not just your life but you away...

It gave you Him...

The way he just knew that shift in you the waaaaaay he played this song 2-3 times and then you played it on loop till almost sanghi....

And that one smile that one expression even as you talk random things away the way he nods smileeees away all through that drive and then suddenly stops and goes out gets you gulmohar and just gives in your hand and says now this day feels complete...

The waaaaay it makes you that happpppppoy him selectively picking those for you and then takes a picture on his phone with you shying away with just your hand in the picture your first ever picture by him...

Gulmohar, the way it has become your most loooooooved flower of Life... No matter where you see it around roads and streets around houses and places the way any sight of gulmohar makes you smile makes your heart smile is beyond anything...

It's that very feeeeweeeeeeeel of him right there sitting beside you with that smiiiiile on him the waaaaay every single time it's like you see him every single sight of gulmohar is like Him, Him right there!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaa singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa howwwwweeeeeee only you are being missed away iffffffffffffdfff only he knew!!!!!!!!!!!!

Miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!

One of those nights!!!!!!!

Yesterday!!

 Just yesterday on your way back from work raining and the other corner of the road somebody's car wheel cap comes off rolling before your car...

There he was again!!!!!!

On your way to some movie with him and mango and he suddenly stops to the side right before the Begumpet flyover pulls over and he gets out as he had noticed the wheel cap of his car come off and you turn around watching him runback slow towards the car with the wheel cap and it's these moennts charlie like random moennts very random nothing romantic and yet it makes your heart feel that extra special like it makes your heart go ayyyaaaaaaaa this one human the way this one human feels in your heart sings to your heart is like no other......

It just feels that different inaide your soul not just your heart like all of your insides feel differently sing differently dance differently to the sound of this one human...

A presence like no other in the world is what it does to you speaks to you in a way only you understand...!

That very moment wheel cap rolling right before your car and there was that moemnt of his rolling straight into your heart I say!!

It's that instant smile inside outside like that one feeeel there he comes, there He comes... Yet again!!!!!

To this morning from that dream of his to seeing no him on WhatsApp heart breaking somehow these mornings that very realisation and that moment at the cafe again buying bread and you literally picture him standing beside you smiling at you at the counter and you just freeze there smiling away like absolute madness of day dreaming away I swear!!!!!

Like that level of strong missing today!!!!!

To few hours back you see your most beloved red halo over him and the second you come back home take your mom's phone see and there he was ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa even his back made you that happpppppoy away!!!!!!

Like you just run to your room play his music and lights out and just be there missing him more away basking a lil more in that rushhhhhh of him!!!!!!!

Him changing tires his sister's picture of him all blue all rained out streets and him just changing tires very sexy!!!!!

I'm telling you charlie like it's always been this way and he somehow knew it too bout you like looooving going crazy over random things bout him like random most things bout him used to make you that happy that instant smiiile tinggg on you in an instant!!

And the waaay he would laugh at you for that calling you howli hai re tu poori!!!!

Today just seeing him living his back away to just see some of him any of him and you just couldn't stop smiling awayyyyy cause trust me that darshan of his back too did come after a very VEEY long time!!!!!!

It's that need to live him feeeeeel him miss him more like lettinf yourself live that him that way missing heartest away with his music...

Some moments nai charlie like are a self induced chaotic Sukoon somehow like they give you that level of Sukoon at the same time you know it will only make the missing more worse and yet AND YET you can't help but just feel away miss away and howwweeeeeeee!!!!!!

That one human that one face that one back that one HIM!!!!!!!!!