Weird!!!!

 Some moments nai they leave that weird feeeeel in the stomach that you can’t fight or sit calm with…

Rakhi one of those days on calendar bhayya every year you miss a lil more…

The two men in your life you deeply madly loved them whole fully!!!!!!

Bhayya and him…!

To see he is here on his story and that feeeeeel again to tell his sister how lucky she truly was to have him with her and that did make you wanna be his sister as weird as it sounds saying it it’s that need of him that need to live him breathe him live the same air as him kinda missing……

To plan for a store in Bombay has not been busy it’s taking all of you to build here first to create that portfolio and presence for there late nights early mornings…..

Something’s you do and just donnoooo!!!!!

There are days and then there are days like these when you seee his work stories too how happy proud heart feeeeels I say!!!!!!!

A dream dreamt and lived together…!

Another one of the zillion dreams actually!!!!!!

And writing the word dream now this one dream few days back him with somebody called Neha his face his hair from back then don’t even know what it was why or how but just enough to land you in that zone again!!!!!!

Somethings I tell you!!!!!!

Weird is an understated word!!!!!!!

Sound!!!!

 This feeeeeeeeeeelinf every single time to hear the sound of his voice him saying something on repeat and you can’t make sense of it…..and you just stay in that same position waiting to make sense of him talking that one wait trying to make sense to just that feeeeeeeel of him that close to you…

U wake up take a few rounds try to get yourself to sleep again just so you could go back to the very moment of his presence to that sound of him that close to your ears!!!!!!

Just to hear him feeeeeeeel that sense of his presence!!!!!

Now still turning changing sides waiting to hear him…the sound of his voice that same tone of his voice!!!!!!!!!!

This feeeeeeeeeel right now!!!!!!!!!!

This!!!!!

 Sometimes in sleep as you switch sides and for that fraction of second you wake up with this sudden brush of memory and this fataaak smile on your face cause he just rushed through you and howwwweeeee!!!!!

Himmmmmmm the light the calm and the most beauuuuutiful storm of your life I say!!!!!

This very moment right there how much how bad much he was truly missed charlie!!!!!!!

This very moment here and this neeeeed to scream it out of you somehow with all this missing!!!!!! 

Moments!!

 Another late night at work and wake up with this realisation of Sai baba Pooja at home as it’s guru Purnima today!!!!!

Dates on the calendar 31st July guru Purnima with him at his Dd space!!!!!!

As twisted as it sounds another one of those most memorable dates of your life I say!!!!!

Lil did you know that day if only you had the slightest of idea that day meeting him and then leaving heading back home that it’s going to be years after……..

Some dates on the calendar…!

This weird mix feel today!!!!!!!

Call it maaaaaagic...!

 If there is any magic exists for real any list spark of it too it lies in moennts like these!!!!!

Absolute moment of magic morning morning!!!!!

Waking up to him that early as too much work to take care for the day and that peace of your mornings living him and then having coffee with some Instagram personal!!

And this maroof artist that you love the mini documentary posts and this one had a beautiful post about weaving and stuff but the song the songgggggg was an instant him pull to you...

That instant pullllllll Piya tose Naina lag re absolutely him poooooraaaaaa ka poora and that one feeeeeeel.....playing it on loop and then live him on Instagram and there was your most loooved halo over him mom's fone sneak and it was bout his blue canvas bts and the music of it another track from the same ditto movie guide...

What are the chances!!!!!!

What are the co incidences!!!!!

That one feeeeeeeeeel that beauuuuuutifully in-sync...

Some visuals some sounds some moennts that thing bout apart yet moments together lived...

The way it also brings back that feeeeel of his movie, the day he wrapped up the shoot of blue canvas he messages you that very morning after unblocking you...like he had wrapped up very early in the morning and later through the day he texts you something's nai...

Like the mind on a flashback zone now!!!!!!!

Morning morning this himzoned away like on an absolute HimFlight mode literalllllly...!

Waking ups!!!

 Mornings like these waking ups like these and you time and again re realise how it's the most loooooooved moment of your day...to wake up to him first thing first visual first face of your mornings!!

That peaceful happy rush kinda start to the day......

It's that immense looooove to live every detail of him to start the day with... Like this part of your day is yours alone like the most you you feel at, the rest of it just goes on as per everybody else's !!

Miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

Moments!!!!

 There is one place everywhere charloe where you’ve pictured him with you or just waiting for him there walking to you like it has happened a zillion times over the years and concu is one such place where you’ve pictured him with you just right beside you but this dream today felt different to any of the ones till date…

This felt like just bumping into him randomly and then holding that umbrella for him as it was raining heavy and then that fear of upsetting him and you try to walk away from him and the waaaaaay he leans over that close to you and asks you to wait instead…….

That one vision of him in that black shirt that real like it’s been happening very often late seeing him in places imagining away day dreaming away but aaj ka felt very different….

To this meeting with a friends sister client kinda coffee meet and they were playing Shaan there and ayyyaaaaaa that one immediate mindlane switch I say ziooooop bolke to everything him and smiling away amidst discussion and you on your way out just to live him and ther was this same hibiscus color that was in his Ramanthapur house back then…..

That very unique mauvy pink flower almost with deep pink stripes and you see that and stand by it and he mentions bout his mom planting those and his dad asks you to pluck a flower if you wanted to and you instead tell uncle you just like watching flowers not plucking them and him right beside you hits his head against yours before his dad and says papa howli hai ine……

And the second his dad goes back inside he looks you in the eye and starts running towards the stairs to his room knowing your urgency to hit his head back again…..that adoooorably chuckling away saying kitttaaa control Kari nai tu to hit back before dad…..

To just run after him to his room and watch him look at you chuckle away it’s that feeeeeeeling charlie you just can’t love someone and that’s it you find a zillion moments over and over that make you realise my goddddd I love this face this smile this presence this sound of voice I looooooooooove himmmmm!!!!!!

Like you know it hitting you like it hit the first time falling in love for the first time happening over and over again with that same very face!!!!!

That day standing there watching that particular color of hibiscus and living that moment with him there was that kind of realisation mannnnnnn it’s beee years and yet I loooooove that one face!!!!!

To this morning standing there at concu watching him walk towards you reliving the gym moemnt in the dream like from that walk to this walk and then to live him after waking up!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the LOOOOOOOOOVE & HEART of your life I swear!!!!!!!

Absoluuuuute looooooove!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaa some moments even reliving now as you write!!!!!

Another one of your most looooved things bout him the way after hitting your head with his in his car that wait in him for you to come closer and strike back !!!!!!!

His eyes that smiiiiiiile of his that expression on him his arms and chest wider open like letting you come closer !!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!