Waking ups!!

 When you literalllllly wake up with all night of him whispering away something that thaaaaaaaaaaaat close to your ears...just the sound of his voice all night last night!!

So much so that you wake up missing that feeeeeeeeeeeeel of his lips on your ear like something that important part of your ear missing kinda vibe...

The waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay that instant feeeeeel still on the bed as you feel your right ear missing that feeeeel of his lips there...it instantly brings back that same missing feeeeeeel soon as you get off his couch in Versova and stand there with that same missing feeeeel and just look at him......him asking you in Ishara what happened cause he could sense that lostness in you and you couldn't tell him how much how baaaaaaaaad you were missing him already...cause earlier in some meet he had strictly mentioned don't talk love or mush to me!!!!!

And you just stand there missing his leg cause all that while for few hours wrapped with him just being living him away and soon as you get up that instant feeeeeel like something that important missijg in your body kinda feel...

That sense of sudden emptiness soon as away from him cause that's how tight he was wrapped all around......not giving too many details but that feeeeeeeeeeeeel and suddenly you get up and miss that in you...looking at his face checking that lostness in you you so badly wanted to scream out and tell him on his face I missssssss you soooooo much already and you just gulp it down and nod saying nothing...

Even walking out and he stands there at the door and you ask him bahar aake chod that feel nai charlie not knowing when you'll see him next that lil walk with him him with you for few more mins you didn't want to miss...as he walks with you for that one second he comes closest like he used to earlier and slowly lifts his arm a lil up just like he used to back then showing you how to hold onto his arm and that evening too slowly lifts his arm up and then moves a lil away then looks at you just smiles away cause you were just bout to hold him that expression on him......cause that's how used to you were holding him and walking along with him...and his body too subconsciously reacts in that same way as your arms did for that one second...

Inside hoping there's no auto close-by so that few more mins with him as he looks around and you waiting for him to tell you stay back na that waiiiiit in you cause you could that clearly read it all across his face but that wait for his words the waaaaaay just the waaaaaaaaaay he keeps looking you in the eye.......finally a min or two later auto comes over getting in he takes a cigarette as he walks across the road too see his legs through the auto window...

Some visuals nai still this STILL this clear!!!!!!!

Like it all was just bout yesterday...!

Sooooooo yahhhhhhhfrom where to where only it went the same that same missing over your ear this morning cause that's how long he was right there whispering something way breathing over your ear...

Not a word you remember but now that one feeeeeeeeel of Versova takes over your mind, from his lips to his leg back from Versova!!!!!!!!

This morning already !!!!!!!! From a waking up to his Lucky Ali new track every single word of this track all HIM!!!!!!! Beh jaooooooo sangggg tere, tuuuuuuuuuu jaaaaaane hai kahaaaaa!!!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only!!!!!!!!!!!

Priority...!

 

Even after having saved it on your Pinterest board this need to save it here you spend all your day most trying to figure out how to get back posting images...this level of peace right now when you are able to do so...

Some moments nai need visual to tell the complete story and give out the actual vibe of the moment asto how and what was it that you exactly felt like...

This was one of those moments of urgency I say, hichki down or not you just had to!!

Hummmaaaaa!!!!!!

The opera visual story...!

What only!!!!

 And for the whatever of God you are unable to post the image here even after trying all cookies whatever it is unable to post images this one thing about techlogoy why is it this humanly chanellnging to understand !!!!!!

At this kind of hours where pee who bhi utri understanding cookies away ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa him calling you cooookiepie every single time you read cookies somewhere!!!!!

Logics!!!!

 Today hicki hit too high this mind spiralling away right now so.zoom bolke......

Ok another realisation today to work on job you need 2 balls which you already have but to run a business you gotta have 10 or.mpre balls to get through I swear.....

There are days when you literally have that same vibe as a kid trying struggling to get the sock on and then gives up throwing the sock away nah not anymore kinda thing then there are days you take it as your hideout for your mind...

Cause honestly charloe if it wasn't for your work consuming you literally howelse would you possibly have survived his absence from your life...

Nai hota tha otherwise I swear never ever anybody in your life did become the ultimaye priority of your heart and soul literally!!!!

Like even on your worst most tiring late nighty work schedules there's that peace that safe hideout of your mind into all things him...

Feomovinf to new studio space to having to fix the entire roof all over again with pant and stuff it's been maddening shoots postponed store setup postponed to looking for new space and then running out of budget to your ac telling you to instead investing in property Insyead.....it's all been too too crazy for your mind to keep pace with to understand to the photographer being an absolute leechad for hiring a bigger crew to changing plans shoot schedules and your ode to the sea collection changing again...

There's only that lil a small mind can possibly work and digest no......there's way too many things it's been feeding on ab hajam nai hora...

As glam as it looks fr the outside it's an absolute 24/7 job ever since having moved here.....too many things working simultaneously you were never used to!!

Then there is the back work for the shoot styling and stuff and tgus another visual ofa woman again and that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of him taking that picture of you at opera and falls in love with that picture of yours......as you see and call it ugly and he calls it your most loved picture taken by him...like his ultimate fav picture of yours !!!!!

This image as you were reseacthingon pinterest the second you see it it immmmmmediately reminds you of that pic of yours he had clicked at opera...

After a rush of love post moments he moves a lil away watching you watch him as you were holding yourself away with that intensity of the moemnts and he takes his phone out and takes a picture of you...

Some moemnts nai...!

Visuals!!

 Way too many flashes of memories recently!!

With this new tend of 2016 2026 it's like one time travel mode only ever since... 1 hichki down now this mind right now...

Today has been something else this coffee meet with the stylist discussing about some her project and your outfits collaboration and you just couldn't put your mind into work with this visual of her hickey it's like this one complete rush of him through n through and she keeps checking on if you were even listening...

And this sound of him chuckling away as you force him literally to leave his color of loveo you and he mentions bout your mom noticing and you literally hold him forcing him to stamp you away...

And she was saying something and you akele akele laugh away recalling that moemnt with him it was like you were liyeralllllyin that moemnt with him...as he says terko dar nai hailook at you kya Khushi milti ki terko...to him in Versova literally Colors you away top to toe in his Colors ...

It's that joy of witnessing that in his eyes this mall in nacharam near the fly over stopping by to get some concelater as that day it was darkest on you and he stops by there...just right outside under the light he stops you there moves your collarof the kurti a lil away with his hand and that smile on him and asks you to tilt your head a lil in Ishara and then sees it again and that joy in his eyes charlow was our of this world!!!!!!!

Like nothing your seen before just the way he looked that happy seeing it on you!!!!

Today there wer zilluon more moemnts like these just flashing through you rushing through you on that very moment!!!!!!

And you finally falloff that meeting and head to the studio instead!!!!!

It's that sudden rush of him tooopppp much in you!!!!!

It's when you feel that much him you just can't be yourself with work around like you just need to be away from everything else and closer to just all things him...stay in the office with phone on silent and his music playing!!!!!

This thing about visuals one lil visual nai can do a zillion things away to your mind....!

And howwwwwwwwwweeee!!!!!!'

Moments!!

 There is that certain level of happiness somethings as lil as this can give you on specific days mainly…

This vibe of seeing that most looooved halo over him hoping to live him and it turns out to be a anime post!!

And yet that something lil did make you that happy for a bit as it’s the Youday literally today since the very start of the day…to wake up to himcomings like these on a Sunday is pure purest form of magic I say!!

Like nothing else apart from the actual Him could possibly make you this happy, that feeeeeeeeeeel of waking up after a himcoming like that one on a Sunday who bhi…

Hayeeeeee sing miyaaaa that one of a kind I swear!!!!!!

To this recent of listening to old songs with beats like these and still working but this mind this mooooood it lands you in…places that you wanted to be, live with him that THAT BAAAAAAD!!!!!!!!!

Such a mood today has been, still is…!

Zillion things!!

 Zillion things godzillian changes and then there are queit moments like these when he just walks into your mind in the middle of the jam!!

This akele akele smiling away moment heart smiling on the inside too cause that's how this memory of his made you feel right right NOW...

Ways of the heart to the Sound of His Music yet again...!