One of those!!

 It's one of those nights!!

Waking upto THAT much him and this feeeeeel now working on some interior thing!!

Truly truly moments like these where your absolute happiness lies in...

Finally your first ever proper commercial store that you signed few days back and now working on interiors and stuff it comes to this one dream that one himcoming and this feeeeeel it overloads you with is beyond everything...

This mind today and this level of missing him away...!

Like you are happy excited with the store and related stuff but it's that feeeeel charlie like there's happiness and there's that absolute level of Khushi that makes you that happy that you actually feel crazy happy like crazily insanely happy kinda Khushi that was your this morning when you wake up from that dream of his...

Things moments that always make you re realise certain things time and again...

Someone means that much to you means the world away but it also is not necessary that you meant the same way for them too...and strangely somehow that fact doesn't change your way of loving them...

Even with time, it somehow doesn't change a thing for your love and loving them...!

To back to now that you are working at, saving the first few moments away of your commercial store FINALLY!!!!!

Youdays!!

 Sunday mornings like these !!!!!

A sleep full of him a waking up to your most looooved red halo over him.....a race thing but something's you can never really understand thewaaaaays they can make you happy away!!!!!!

It's just been such a moooood today!!!!!

A day full of toooo much missing with all the plannings on hold for just today it's been suchaaaaaaaaaaaa beauuutoful himday today...

This level of missing today...now this hour of his Fink playing in your ears a glass of icey gin lights dim working on some designs this mooood this state of mind with the strings playing...

The drives the first time feeeeeeeling him away with just your eyes... Fink does this every single time!!!!!!!

The waaaaaaaaaaaaays it brings back those initial days of drowning in love with him without even realising it...

Like he moves around the gym you loooooived watching him he would sit down on the steps before the store below the gym with his car door open just sitting there and you waiting outside for the auto, sometimes skipping the auto stopping by too, cause you just loooooived living him away... Him on phone sometimes sometimes just looking at something sitting there alone on the steps...

And that one pull that one wait that one hold to just be there and live him away to the sound of fink playing in his car...to those late night calls with him with same fink playing in the background in his room...

Even that day first time in his house and then upstairs and he runs to his room and playsfink on his desktop and comes out smiling away and you show in Ishara from listening to it on his phone call to actually being in his place and listening there in his presence....

It's the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay the feeeeeels the mind would sync that beauuuuuutifully without having to say a word...

Singmiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the absolute the complete COMPLETE heart n soul of your LIFE!!!!!!!!!!

Rush!!!

 The sound and beat of teddy swims just made HIM rush flow swim through you and howwwwweeeeeee!!!!!

Whatttaaaaaaaaa accidental his kinda psssssydelic sound find this has been THIS him rush right through you nowwwweeeeee!!!!!!!! 

Dancing flowing moving missing him away in a room with no lights!!!!!!!

A second!!

 That one second of happiness in the morning seeing your most loved red cirle circling away!!!! 

It’s some moments nai only when you live them do you realise how much these lil things do really matter and make that big of a difference to you…

It’s only when you live them do you realise the importance of it…

Priorities…!

Beyond normalcy!!

 One of those days when you miss him beyooond normalcy and too many isharas of random events through the day connecting the missing and that beautifully worsening the missing away...

Been one of those days of missing today waaaaaay beyond your everyday missing him...

July 26 concert in his Versova of all artists had to be Niladri and you just cantttttttt wait!!!!!!!

Some days nai!!!!!!!!! That one wait to live some moemnt of his some thing anything on his story doesn't happen been too long...

Right from the very start today...!

Moments!!!!

 Of all the moemnts something as random as that moment with his back facing towards trying to feed you something has made your heart this THIS happy right now......

Just to live that closeness of his after years that way the way it brings back that chocolate room memory with him...

His usual love to make you get something he loved he takes you to this place with his sister in the front with him and you were sitting right behind him...and this chicken something he orders for and there was a specif way of eating it and he turns and takes your foil plate thing and shows you how to eat and then opens his mouth asking you to open yours and feeds you and then watches your expression cause you loved it and then suddenly realises his sister's presence as you ask him to feed her too in Ishara soon after brings his one hand from the side feeling your feet away and then holds your hand for a bit and looks at you through the rear view...

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa one thing to the other this heart right now how HOWWWWWWWWEEEEEEE much love did he absolutely filled you up with nai!!!!!!!

This one sudden feeeeel right now THAAAAAAAAT much love he completely filled you up with lasting for all these years now...to a night for a night like this one too!!!!!!

This heart this feeeeeeeeel this missing this LOOOOOVE for him right now!!!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

This missing!!!!!!!!

He was that close THAAAAAAAAT close just mins ago!!!!!!!

His hand his back his arms his entire presence that THAT close to you!!!!!!

Sound of his voice still this very clear talking something away!!!!!!!!!!!

This one feeeeeeeeeel right now of the 2009 like in your mind right now you are back there in that very moment living his love for you away and howwwwweeee!!!!!!

He used to love you THAT MUCH!!!!!!!!!!

On nights like these with a missing like this sometimes it all still feels like one of the most beauuuuuutiful dreams of your life I swear!!!!!!!

2009

 There are moments and then there are string moments like these where the sound of him talking to you made you feel like you were back in 2009 same phone calls that tone of his voice still this clear ayyaaaaaaaaa even as you write now shut your eyes to relive that voice of his and it's still this clwar.........

His back that close to your face like you could literally holdddd him away that THQT close to you.......that close to your face in that moemnt......

Ayyqqaaaaaaaaaaaaa this mind right now soooo high soooooooooooo high on him!!!!!!!!!!!