Wednesday 5 June 2019

THAT much of him!!

its that one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel when you live him that way and then wake up with that still smthing of his presence that you can smell around.....

that need to just be away ad head out for a walk.....

weather getting a bit more monsoony like you can smell it in the air already....

and that one calm at this hour just you THAT much him rushing through you and his music sort of calming it all down away....

its that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel charlie like in your mind its still that he was that THAT close like holding you by the shoulder like you were sharing that pain that smthing of yours with him like he was there that very moment and then to seeeeeeee him like just wake up to him and find him living your presence and how ayyyaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaa and howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww loooking his beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutifullest messssy best !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

like whooo hotaaaa nai pooora din nai khake biryani samne rak do fir bhiiii whooo wali yummmmmminesss nai hotiii ayyyaaaaaaaa to just seee him messssyyyyyy bas slurpppppppppppp bolkeeeeeeeeeee khaaaaaaaajaaanaaaaa poooora ka pooooooora i say !!!!!!!!!!!

the waaaaay he slowly moves closer and when you start to move the way he keeps saying dont move pls dont move karely.... now not sure if t was cause you were alredy in that much pain or maybe it was bout you move and you wake up..... like maybe he too was like holding onto your presence just so the dream goe on for a bit longer.....

to that moment when you actall feeee hua uskaaa touch jidar pain thaaaaa exactly udar this sudden neeed to get on hindi....... baaah if only youcould just write it all out without having to censor it down!!!!!!!

like you fel him live him is one thing and then when you live him when you need him and you dint even know you did is another thing only........

like it makes it all the more special stronger of a bond that you share with him even in his absence..... like there is that other reality on one side and this side ofhim is when you feeeeel that same love of his for you back....

moments like these......

LIFE i say.......

when now as you write not sure if its the pain diller working or just this beuaty of finally writing hm out wokring like the pain now you dont feel that much.....

to just live him charlie - like poooori ki poooori jaaaaaan meri i swear !!!!!!!!!!!!!

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