Friday 7 June 2019

Moments like these...

from that very confused and yet HIM high state of mind to getting some work done finally afte two off days and gettign the reports back from the doc....

head out on the way this one turning at the signal and on the opp side of the road a man getting in the car with his family waiting outside and waving back at the man with luggage in hand....

this exact same vsiual that you forget writing bout when it was raining at shilparamam that day....

this exact same visual and that same feeeeeeeeeel of him then and the waay it ws like to remind you of the moment from then...

cause in that moment of rush of missing due to the first rains... as you loo out this one cab right outside and a girl and her mother standing outside as the guy hugs his mother prolly and just looks at the girl and get sinto the cab and leaves.....

that one moment and that one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of him right before leaving for bangalore...

it was teh first time he was going that far off you for that many days and every single damn time you wrte this THIS one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling it overloads you with !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on that day it was sucha big deal to be away from him for just a few days lil did you knowwwwwwwwwwwwww nai then !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LIL DID YOU KNOWWWWWWW THEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo yaaaaaaaaaaaaah !!!!!!!!!!!!

it was that feeeeel charlie that day liek he was being more close to you like you did share a few first time moments with him that day liek he was filling up for that distance after tha day itself.....

like not a moment away from you the waaay he was just beign that closest and you your hands off him was smthing that jsut dint happen not even for a sec.... finally when he lets you pack for him and just sits and watches you with that THAT MUCH khushiiiii on him..... as you keep asking if this tee or that one if this chaddi or that one and the waaaaaaaaay he just nods awaaaaaaaaaaaay to each one with that loooooooooooooooooooooove in his eyes in his smileeeee where if toooo much looove then he wold jus come closer chummmiiiii you away and get back to just living your presenc doorse....

it was only till that moment when you finally seee him moving awa towards the car with bag in his hands do you realize aishaaaaa he i sleaving.....

when he shares that stare with just you everyboyd almost in his family right out there waving him bye and there was him sharing that stare jjus with you looking at just you.... that one min long stare with that one nod of his as he then steps in the car.... and then stays watches you therouhg the reare view and then leaves.....

chachi asking sis askign what the nod was bout like if he did frget something and there ws you with that neeeeeed to just run awaaay for a bit and relive that moment with him in your mind.....

cause you alone knew what that moment what that stare what that nod of his meant !!!!!!!!!

knowign how much he will be missin you and there was you then realizing the diatnce....

like the sec you live that moment there outside shilparamam the waaaaaay it all just flows like one after the other moent tha one trip of his did give you the most beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutiful moments of love even in his absceneve....

that one call of his late in the nite after reching bangalor n the first thing you mention was if his chaddis were stinking cause you galti se packed it all together as the chaddis were just bout drid after washing and you galti se packed it together.....

and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he chuckles that adoooooooooooooooooooooooorably saying that was prolly the most looved call answer that he has ever got and then asks you to pack for every trip f his.....

ever since then geeeli chaddi packing is smthing that always also comes iwth him its this random most things charlie chaddi wale legs food wale items orange candies mangoes whte shirts to even cockroaches and that much khushiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii they fill you up with cause each one has THAT much of him and that HOWWWWWWWWW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa howleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee  tummmmmmm kittteeeeeeeee yaaaaaaaaad aaare miyaaaaaaaa abiii k abiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how onlyyyyyy why onlyyyyy he be still scared to stay its this weird stragest feeling wonder question ever !!!!!!!

from that him t this one !!!!!!!!!!!!!

loving ech and every him all the more i say no matter how and what it is !!!!!!!!!!

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