Weird guilt !!

it was that shameful weird guilt of stopping down to that level of thinking aisi ladkiyo is also when you realize how much you missed that love of his in that very moment.... just cause of the way the guy was looking at her depsite of her showing smthing else.....

again smthing you lived him the most that way.... no matter what you talk or do him that beauuuuuuutifully lost in you with that one smile on him....... liek that one moment makesyou feel that weird feeel.....

it wasnt jealousy but that one weird feel like smthing youve never felt before.....

as you go back in and the way she asks that thing bout looking for answers cause she did sense that when you ask her smthing bout her story and as she digs in deeper details of her story and coming together you skip the topic away... and that made her wonder you run away from smthing.....

she is a good person charlie like for once when you can just be and not hesitate asking smthing maybe cause again you felt that initial connection over the story and secondly cause she is still someone random like you know you can just be cause she knows nothing at all bout the Him and you.....

that weird feeel still on your mind and yet another question from you is it that easy to make love stay and she smiles and asks you to tell her everything cause she could sense that you had a better story to share with her also cause you never spoke anythng bout Him.....

when you tell her bout getting back to work and she continues saying love will stay when it has to and when the time is right and distance does change things.... again depends on how much of a change it has been !!

call it a day again telling her to postpone the meet for tomo and her being actually very sweet agrees to.....

on your way back a msg from her saying she is all ears whenever you want to share your story with her cause she could see that much love in you..... and that made her wanna know more....

smthings some conversations and that feeeeeel they can leave you with....

exchange of minds or words....

change can change things depending on what the extent of change has been like.....

when you see her msg the guy back there was no thinking or wondering if to say or not....

this one thing when you hold that misseeeeeeed you the very first sec you see his msg or that need to hold an i love You forever now.... like smthing you almost have never told him only !!!!!

you cant be open and all out there like cant even say a missed you out the very sec when you want to.... like theres that smthing in between that comfort missing that right to say it missing that one smthing that big missing when you cant say what you want to and most importantly when you want to.....

change after all does change a lot of things not just on the outside but with time on the inside too......