Tuesday 28 May 2019

To know its you...!

when you are this baaaaaaaad sleeepy and also this neeeeeee dto write it all out just cause this now state of mind i saay !!

that you are almost snoozing beech beech mein with this need to relive him from that very moment....

is when you realize how writing out the missing has become this necessity that you cant live without now !!!!!!!!!!

these last two songs that you find on his channel and that another ting it left you with yesterday how can even someone deny of his love.... like then it obvsly did make you feel it was you being foolish all this while thinking them to be songs for you but after the block that another ting of it was for someone else..... and that weirder feel how can someone not love him be there for him.... like the only thing you could think of was mein rehti thoo bum pee fevicol lagaaa ke baith jaaati....

like only would move if he asked you to kinda - stay....

like it was more bout that one best friend in you that was acting up wondering why wouldnt she stay be there for him when he wanted her to......

liek his love you knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww what and how HOW MUCH it means to you !!!!!!!!!

and then to see someone ignore that VERY love !!!!!!!!!

was whenthe best friend in you was acting up weirdly wondering aisaaa kaisaaaa iskuu nai pyaar kar sakti uneee.....

even writing out your state of mind then feels weirder now.... but smthings nai no logic i say.......

its this thing charlie when you know what you miss and HOW much and to then realize someone ignore that very thing and who bhii of all the people HIM it is..... to just feeeeeeel him miss someone and not have someone be there for him you knowwwwwww how that makes him feeel......

and that weirder feeeeling how could someone not be there for Him.....

and then again when you live the other side of the story in your dream...... living him in a way again that you stay away from living in your waking state only cause joooo baaad mein feeeeeel ho jaataaaaa nai poooora gets only more difficult and complicated to manage or get a hold on......

then to wake up with that feeeeeeeeel of him !!!!!!!!!!!!

beyond words !!!!!!!!

mind kuu normal kaisaaa mainain karnaa samaj ni ata !!!!!!!!!!!!

kaisaaa normal mode pe wapis lana nai samaj ata i swear charlie !!!!!!!

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