Sunday 5 May 2019

Patang saa......

this one dream that often now.....

mind getting weirder or misssing getting worser is one confusion in itself.....

aiseee mein that one struuugle to ut urself to sleeep just sooooooooo youc ould live him there.......

and like in a row you live him thrice or maybe more.... cause there were a few  times wen u did feeel him but like dont emember of it now....

this one dream that oen constant some place again same as the stadium place bells ringing in the backdrop and him standing right ebside you..... you not talking him not talking and the waaaaay he just keeeps moing a lil closer like you cant see him its stll blur but you can smell him feeeeel his presece and by that obvsiouly who else could it be - HIm......

and the closer he gets and you turn to seeee like trying to look at him and it gets more blur like you cant see anything of him like can just hear the bells runign some music of his playing him getting a lil more closer..... and this one time you move and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he just holds your amr and tells you dont move youll wake up.... and the waaaay it shakes you up with confusion and you still looking at him like you were tring to see anything of him that you could see like you keeep wiling your eyes jsut soooooo you could seee him and you try t move your face closerrr and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he that adooooooooooooooooorably says dont chummmii kardetuuu and you again go alil more closer especially after he says that and the way he says again karely pls dont move youll wake up and one more timehe says that and you wake up.......

THAT one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel everyt single time you wake up like this kaikuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uskaaaaa nai suntiii....... like that one echooo of his voice always there boleeethooo sunnaa karely.....

that one strange feeeling of him requesting you not to move cause you might end up waking up..... that one wrid feeeling.....

this time take off the ear plugs play his music loud shut the room away and try to go back to sleeep again.....

like shutting your eyes closer like literally trying struggling making yourself go to sleeep.... and us trying tryin mein donnooo when ou actually fall asleeep.....

and this one sec you feeel being pulled closer by your collar like the sec you feeel that pull touch over your collar that neeed to sniff and there he was agiaaaaaaaaaaan............

and as you sniff the way he that adoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooorably brings his hand closer to your nose just sooo you could smlelll him auuur paaaas seeee.....

and you literally drown your nose awaaaaay in his hand in his skin just sooooooooo you could make the most of his presence and that one adooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooorable sound of his chuckle watching you do that obvsly......

yeee same to same pagalpaaan meraaa uskeee actuall saamnee bi nikal thaa charlie.....

ab kyaaaa karu whoo hamesha se that one thing nai maloooom fir kab miltaaa ki ya nai..... and that neeed to make the most of his presence maybe just sooo you oculd fill up an absence like this one.....

sooooooooooooooo yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!

the sec you literallydornwn your nose awaay in his hand that one beauuuuutifully slow whisper of his saying mein pooora idhar huu beyyyy.....but dont move pls.....

the waaaaay this was the second time in a row when he asks you again not to move..... and you tell him but you need to touch him and the sec you say that and even befre you finish saying it the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he just holds you awaaaaaaaaaay like there was you sirf tocuh boli mein and even before you finsih saying it ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaa uskeeee whooo styleeeeee mein pooooooora llleeeeeeeeeee letaaaaaaaaaa thaaaa merkuuuuu charlie like ekdummmm you become him just him in that moment..... like there is no you and him kinda thing but just that beauuuuuuuuuuuutifully all Him i say....... pooora ka poooraaa usseeee dhakkk leeee waliii feeeeeling i say.......

like all you can smell see feeel live Him.....

like thers no moving no need to look for him pull out your nose looking for him hecking his presence nothing at all just cause THAT much him all of him that beauuuuuuuuuuuuuutifully is all you can feeel pooora mere peee......

the sec he does that  the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he says it again basss tuuu hill math and you jus nod as he keeps saying that..... and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay still holding you that waaay he dheeree seee makes you sleeep..... and stays that waaaay...... like you try to settle or move to put your arm right or smthing it was.... and the waaaaaaaay he says it again hill math karelyyyyyyyy.....

that same adoooooorable trying to make you do what he says tone of his voice and you do as said.... dont move and whooo dheereeee dheeeree was like apneee taraf karaaa thaaaa charlie..... like you know making you move his side and that beauuuuuutifully trying to put you to sleepe... and that sameeeee beauuuuuuty of those after iniial moments the waaaaay just like he used to dheeeree se gets on smthingssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss you wannnaaaaaaaaaaaaa sooooooooooooooooo write and YET cant writeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this one censory i sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah basssss this onlyyyyyy wen you sooooooooooooo badlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy wan to just writeee it outtttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

howleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee this moment right here abiiiiiii k abiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii YOU were missed the worstestttttttttttttttt i sayy !!!!!!!!!!!!! 

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