All His...

to be with him anywhere out or even as lil as walking around the apartment late evenings every single moment every single sec wih him spent living him you came back home becoming a lil more His every single time...

it wasnt just bout the conversations bout  the holding him n all that, just a look from him just him watching you walking towards him was like him making you a lil more his......

it was in the waaaaaaaaaay he would look at you like knowing you were drawn to him..... just in the way it was !!

to his lilst of habits with you his eating way his walking way his standing way his way of saying some words or doing some random everyday habits like even the way he would move his hair away his forehead him sitting in a particular way whilst driving anything to everything bout him was like your life like to live him wa syour ultimate peace..... ultimate HAPPINESS.......

and then the waaaaaaay he would jus look at you liivng that beauuty of him and then that another look from him pulling you clsoer wanting you to sleep over his lap.....

lay over and the waaaaaaaay he would hold you away like secure you so you cant move even with a sudden break on.... latching onto you !!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDD sound of his music i say !!!!!!!!!

lie he would just hold you and then keep a check on you like if you were held right.... like to just live that THAT much love from him like it used to put you in that most beauuuuutiful space of mind..... like you are at most ease like most comfortable that cozy happy full complete heart vibe.... like uskuuuuuu waisaaa deke dekeee kaisiii neeed aaajatiii thii charlie......

like that one level of sukooon it wasnt even cause you were up the nite before talking to him ayyyya  smthings you write now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

daaaaaaaaaaaaaamnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

soooooooooooooo yahhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!

but that one ultimate level of happpy heart just by the waay he looks at you and smileeeeeeeeeeeeeees that smile keeps feeling you rhand your forehead and just that smileeeeeeee on him as he lowers the sound like making sure you sleep for a bit......

and then when you move with some break or smthing that beauuuuuuuutiful feeeel of being held tight by him.....

last nite that same feeeel !!!!!!!!!

switching sides and this one time when your hand feels smthign wierd.... and that makes you wake up n see what it was and it was gear and you try to move or smthing and that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of his hand over you...... like to just see his hand over your hand being held tight.... and moves his finger over your hand and you look up and there he was navy blue shirt hair that beauuuuuuuuuuutifully messy his usual just woken up hair and ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuty of his daaaaaaaadi.... like just seeing him that waaaay that sudden rush of holding him awaaaay like bas latakkkkkkkk jaaanaaa uspeee and also that fear of you move ekdum see and he disappears.... like that one fear that strong and you try to hold yourslef..... and just be there and wtach him instead.....

and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he does his usual thing of trying to pull you closer that one nodddddd of his knowing that beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutifully again knowing that well that you were fulll on controlling yourself awaaay......

that one nod of his with that smileeeeeeeeeee and that tone of his voice as he says kyaa hua karely.....

ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa kitteeeeeeeeeee saaalo baaaaaad whoo suni charlie.......

this one line from him when he knows exaaaaaaactly whats rushing through you and he would ask you in that tone of his after living that rush through you just by a stare.....

and that another nod again and this time there was no waaaaaaaaaaay you oculd hold yourself back and you fataaaak seee get off trying to hug him and the waaaaaaaay he holds your head awaaaay saying careful karelyyy.....

and you wake up.....

maybe it was the steering that you were going to hit over smthing cause this you used to back then that often that same rush to hold him awaaaay and you would fataaak se get off his lap to hold him or chummmii him and he would alwaaaaay smake sure to remind you to be carful.....

that one state of mind from living that ultimate moment of love n peace to looking around trying to understand where you were at......

to that another beauty of all him that you could still smell around n over your hand.....

like first you smell around and that neeeed to smell over your own where his hand was.....

smthings and this one especially will never make any sense NEVER !!!!!!!

like dream you still connect n relate with, but that beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuty of beign able to still smell him around in the waking state !!!!!!!!!

beyond magic n words i say !!!!!!!!!