missing out on too many !!

its that thing charlie when youve been missing out on too many of things or actually just that one him that comes with toooooooooooooooo many things to be precise.....

and that one feeeeeel when smthing that lil bhi gets fulfilled like kaise bhi kuch bhi that one lil thing bhi and that itself makes that big of a difference......

and to find that street that day was lil thing for you that did make that big of a difference smthing you again alone knew of...

cancel the indoor setup switch to t he street shoot with lilst of gulmohar around.....

just sooo you could have smthing of him with your first...

day of the shoot at the photographers off the sec you step inside there is this loud music playing in the main off like you could hear the beat the thump sound of it the closer you go it was His......

soon as you step in the off that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of Him !!!!!!!!!!!!

SMTHING else !!!!!!!!!

it was His recent one Man o To...

like you were there to decide and discuss if it would be in different streets around like which outfit with which backdrop and you were lost THAT lost !!!!!!!!!

like the photographer standing asking bout the location and you couldnt just say a word and the guy asks the editor to stop the music as the guy thought it was disturbing or smthing and you ask to let the music be.... and you just needed smtime !!!!

finally the photographer okay the guy tooo long for a word  to write everytime.....

okay the guy steps out on some call you sitting there eyes shut with that one feeeeeeeeeeeeel of him.....

its thing charlie like you that badly wanted to have smthing of him mainly cause he was there with you loved you and HOW when you were nothing at al...... like never for once did he ever make you feel you were doing nothing apart from just loving him... like doing nothing career or smthing for your self wise..... and yet loooooooved you and HOW !!!!!!!!!

and today when you have come this far from writing to working on lil projects to this one now.... working on your own designs and shoot n all like its this lilst but big step for you that you wanted smthing of him to be there with you.......

and there he was literally there in the purest sound of his music right there......

like if that wasnt magic not sure what else could be......

like the team there are not even the kinds that would listen to chillout stuff like those like those proper telgu kinda guys.... and then that music of all the tracks that one song playing of his and that was a moment an experience just for you to be felt and lived...

like just for you alone.....

once the song was done you ask the editor how and where the song came from and all and the guy says he was listening to some other track telgu one or smthing and accidentally clicked on this one and was bout to change but the laptop wasnt responding for the guy to change the track.....

it was one of those moments that gives you goosebumps with that one lilst tear in the eye......

when you truly pure heartedly wish for smthing, few of the wishes do come true after all....

like even if you have missed out on waaay too many of them, there are still a few that do come true and this one was one of those truly strongly wished ones....

to have with him with you !!!!!!!!