Thursday 2 May 2019

it just gets weirder !!

like there was that peace and that sudden smthign weird....

seeing him happy and letting him be that way and also realizing not being a part and that feeel of being out and away......

to that question like who he was.....

to you you know LIFE but that one thing what actually ?!

like from that feeeeeel of realizing how you need to just let him be and the waaay he wants you to be away from it all cause like having said before them not liking you to be with him and then what you were where you were at and all of that weird bunch of feeelings striking away ek saath....

like in your mind you werent even thinking and they were all just striking one after the other.....

jaise deicde he kar liyaaa hoo aaj ek saath waar karinge bolke....

nonsense but like suddenly mind was waaay tooo much of all of that !!!!

and you actually cancel the shoot midway and shift to the next day cause you just couldnt stand there and be all okay with what was rushing through you....

nai malooom charlie ajeeb hora ajeeeeeb ekdum like ekdum see that feeeeel of looking in the wrong direction and waiting for happiness wali feeeling hori thi....

like in the direction you werent even a part of wali feeel....

like what were you doing there then....

liek what all of this was bout like suddenly you were that lost standing in the middle of nowhere to nowhere to go wali feeeling in the head....

like you just couldnt stand there and be okay....

the  next day shoot somehow done but that feeeeling still there....

like with day there were his dreams sttilll going stronger in waaaaaaays and there was that reality of it all totally the other.....

mind getting weirder without even wanting to.....

the world feeels better with eyes shut cause it has all of him still there..... like you dont have to wait doubt or wonder where he is, cause he is just there the sec you shut yoru eyes.....

pehle pehle it used to be in a few days, aaaj kal its almost every day and every day a different version of his love even the ones you avoid thinking or feeling bout, its jus that beauuuuuuuutifully still there....

and you wake up seeing the reality gets back to feeeling weider....

No comments:

Post a Comment

Note: only a member of this blog may post a comment.