The sound of His name...!

Sorting out a few papers single beer mildest high and your mom watching some movie and the sound Kittuuuu!!!!!

Even before you look at the screen your mom that very second looks at you just knowing that well what that one word means to you!!!!

Get off like lietralky off n closer to the tv it was the Shahid movie sons name kittu and that one feeeeel charlie THAT one feeeeel everytime it goes kittuuu mind that beauuuuuutifully overloaded with flashes of that one kitttuuuu!!!!!

This one sceme where the female character asks Shahid kittu or me and your mom that very second you know this one thing I never had a doubt about back then or now years after if it was me or him.....seeing you with him or just the way he was with you looked at you i always knew it's Him before anybody in your life...just when you were a lil happy with the conversation it goes to the much other popular topic in your house but how long will you be like this and go on like this!!!!!

Get off head to the balcony and just be....

There's that different level of Khushi charlie it's things you always knew but then to hear it from somebody else after years when your mom says the way he used to look at you the way you were with him like she always knew he will be your priority...

The sound of his name and the waaaay it brings back a zillion memories be it him telling that adooorablu to your mom you can call me kittu from now on cause my family calls the same or that one time when you call him kittu and he asks you notnto cause he wanted you to be the only one that had some other nickname for him it's these lil lil things he would come up with, this mostly in his kid version of him....

Like that sudden switch to his kid mode of him.....

His logics and his way of love.....

Be it driving back home with his sister in her car ahead and him talking bout how well she was driving dekh dekh kya chalari meri behen that sense of pride in his tone to that other one being for you when you do the same hairdo for his sister and she comes back home and he asks her the first thing shriya banayi baal and when with you dropping back home asks you not to do it again the same one....

Smiles at you and then goes on there are these things karely i want it in my head as with that one someone like that one hairdo just you my sister mostly hair open it's weird no and then goes on with that smile again.....

To the times when eating food chicken it was giving you the best piece from his plate as his sister heads to the kitchen for pickle or something and ftaaak se gives you the piece and when his sister returns she noticed it and asks you bhayyaa Diya na terku and him screaming away in that cuuuteeeeeee kid tone voice terku thoda expression control karna nai ata.....

It's feeeeeling very strange since last two nites this random neeed to just write him away.....lilst of him just this weird neeed donnoo why!!!!!!!

It's this misseeeing getting weirder!!!!!!