His music!!!!!

 Exactly why this love and more for his music....

The waaaay all of him starts to unwrap away bit by bit with evry sound!!!!!

This mind!!!!!

This track so many memories him discussing over the call when you mention moments over him doingbthe exact same thing when you wanna write and can't!!!!!!

Anyway would!!!!!! When you rush in a moemnt andbthe waaaay he would hold you awaaaay in a way calming you away pushing you a lil away just so he could seebyour face in that moemnt and the waaaay it always always used to strangeky make him very happy....

Could never understand that 

The way be it at opera or at his place in rush of a moment and you go closer the way suddenly peak rush he would push you away hold your hands away and then look at you instead it's when you just couldn't somehow look him in the eye after a second or two one look at him andbthe waaaaay it just used to make him that happy......

Evrything that you've ever felt!!!!!

All this while it has always been your choice to still have these moments these glimpses of him in your mind when you miss being loved....

Not even for a moment!!!!!

It's like all of you that's how it needed wanted to be felt as loved as wasn't something intentional but that feeeeeeling charlie like the core feeels!!!!!

Howleeeeeeee this very moment!!!!!!!!!