That one Him...

 Ek baat aaaj full mind on a different trip only!!!!

With these conversations today with mom manager and thus sudden switch to your topic....

Nobody in your life did understand you the way he did....

Not just your words that only person in your life who did understand your silences too....

That nite now that it's playing on loop on your mind today....

At his terrace trying the psy beedi for the first time where he gives you the regular one to take a puff and see and you just don't stop coughin and he chuckles over it saying terku problem hoti ye try kiye tho look at you coughin but like you just had to again the things he loved to just know what and how it felt plus your curiosity level for things!!!!

And he comes close before his sister and shows you how to take that breath in as he breathed out in your mouth and the second he moves away the waaaay it hits your mind all you could see hear feel was him like you remember almost how bad yiubhad to hold yourself away with his sister right beside you.....

That whole moment feeel in yourbhead of him felt different felt for the first time....

Even as you walk down the stairs and you just go closest to him over his neck as he was right before you ndbhe gets scared cause his sister was right before him but walking down and then slows down a lil and whispers away asking you to do it again smiling that one smileeee at you cause he could see how high you were as you keep taking his name loudly and he keeps shoiing you away to talk slow....

To just hold him touch his hand away right beside you even as he slows down walking behind his sister and walks backward lookijgnat you just 5hat need to hold him away......

Like that night that feeeel was different was for the first time you felt that way.....

It's this feeeel to think of it now cahrlie everytime that That Close and yet!!!!!!

Like evry single time you've felt closest wanting to be closest and yet again......

In your mind you were free for the first time from all that fear wanting to set yourself free....that feeeeeling the way he could sense it in you the waaay he keeps nodding away with that onesmile initially in a way trying to hold you away in ishaara the waaaay he just knew it......

This mind this feeeeeel......

Even that evening at his versova not wanting to leave waiting for him to tell you tonstay back or call you again tomo....again with that feeel of being closest f8nally again with that feeeeel he loves you now.....

Something's the mind suddenly switches andbtrips over i tell you!!!!!!!