This day!!!!

 It’s this thing bout some days and there are many mkents and feels this day comes along with!!!!

Diwali has been one such day be it the him taking you out for amla and then seeing that side of him be it holding your hand around as you used to wear heels back then to just getting mad at someone staring at you where you still were friends back then…….but his face in that moment someone watching you and that one face he used to make ayyyaaaaaa!!!!!

To that sense of the other moemnts like Gulaab jamun his fav again feeding him away on the terrace and the way he nods away that adoooooooorably saying nope mere mummy jaise nai bane and you actually chummi his face away with jamun stuffed face of his……cause that’s how adoooooooorably he had said that like even writing that moment now that one face that one sound of his voice saying it to you…

To just the evening of the festival itself before him it was always filled with fear like you remember making sure to have as many lights on as possible and also to make sure you are not just on your own no matter what not alone on Diwali evenings……like holding onto your mom no matter what she was doing was your thing…..ever since him like everything else changed in your life too!!!!

The way that very first moemnt always comes along specially on Diwali during some moemnt at opera that rush in you and then suddenly that fear as he touches for the first time and you shake and move away and the way he brings himself closer still holding onto you and keeps repeating it’s me karely it’s me look into my eyes it’s me and holds you and says the same thing over again it’s me you are safe with me…and this is even when he didn’t know what was wrong with you like he did sense something wrong already and the waaaaaaaay he comforts you away holding you telling you you are safe with me……and then after a bit says chal let’s try again now and chuckles away that afooooorabky!!!!!!

Which he eventually did and after was also something you loved the most like everything else!!!!!!

It’s his voice that sound of him from that moment and the waaaay somehow it’s something you always hear on evenings when alone in the balcony on your own eyes shut living him away from the fone conversation but it’s this moment sound of him that always rushes through you how why what you still donno but it does!!!!!!

It did yesterday too!!!!!!