HIM!!!!!!

 There were a zillion times moments you not knowing what’s happening the waaaaaaay he would just hold you and tell you to this one time in a rush of some moemnt and he holds you and tells you we won’t go beyond this ok……

And on your way back home from opera he goes slow like really slow like you emrbrber seeing a cycle pass by like this day is this clear cause it was the first time you actually asked him a doubt that openly and watching the cycle pass by that slow ask him nai drop karna hai kya and he nods away that adoooooooorably saying a no and you ask him what was the beyond he was talking bout and what would happen if you did and he actually breaks the car in the middle of the road and right in front there was this promotional tempo that had stopped right infornt and the product was something……

And he actually sees that and looks at you and cracks up both of you do and he adds actually wapis ja sakte and take my words back……

It also was one those last times at opera not going to that part of the story…….

It’s this feeeeeee charlie every single time almost there almost there it’s when you have felt the very first thing with him like known something with him having wanted something with him and ever loved a man been him ever loved felt lived imagined a man it’s been him ever craved for something it’s been with him for him and when you wake up from dreams like these this morning one to watching the movie sometime back and reliving the versions of his love to the version of your love for him this beautiful lost stage of mind it leaves you in!!!!!!!!