What!!!!!

 That very moment as you read that line from him this one rush of things you wish you’d wished could scream out to him……

First and foremost 

Wanting every bit of him to evrything…..wanting to do evrythung he told he would we would to trying out that something he mentioned bout when on some holiday like making you try it out to experience something to wanting to go on that early hour long drive out of the city again he talked bout to wanting to say things to him do things to him and wanting it more as you do and live him with…..wanting it every day night and more and sleeping to it waking up to it without having to fear if he would disappear soon as you are up cause that’s something you’ve lived almost all you life witth and just didn’t want to anymore with that fear…

Wanting to live him love him to every sound you that badly wanted to to this recent one too wanting to be with in places wanting to live and love corners of his that you didn’t couldn’t wanting to wake up to watching him sleep wanting to see him sing dance get high with that same look in his eyes wanting to see him play the guitar and sing the same song again…..wanting to get over him and live that exact same moment again of holding his face in your hands and telling him this time how beautiful he was and how madly you still were in love with him withitb that fear of not telling him so and just telling him away!!!!!

Again wanting to have him on your lap exactly the way he used to feeding him things the way he would love you to hold his arm away feel his shoulder away live that beauuuuuty of his daaaadi away live that look in his eyes as he looks at you to live every expression of his every tone and switch of his voice again……

Wanting to again live him in those places and new places too this time wanting to live away love him away and in every way possible there could be…..wanting to also love him the way you watched bout heard bout and are curious to know more it’s this trip of things list of things that we’re rushing through you the second he asks you that question……

Now shouldn’t have had those sips there was a lot more even as she asks you that today……

It’s this thing when some word hits you and you wanna scream it out that bad out of you cause that’s how much it meant to you and of all the people in the world you could t tel him that cause he did mention that clearly being on another track and didn’t want you so!!!!!