State of love!!!!!

 It’s that strong sense of missing that need that want to feel him that comes along on some days!!!!!

Ever since that memory call or these moments through your most difficult days when in your head it’s that state of begging for someone’s love kinda mood!!!!!!

Cause that’s how badly you miss them how badly you miss their presence that one weird state of missing that level of missing it all comes down to!!!!!!

There have been moments dreams waking up to that feeeeel of him presence of him that only made you want more of him and HOW!!!!!!

To that sudden moment after waking up to him in the shower when you open a new body wash thing and the first smell of it brings along that memory of him!!!!!!

As he comes closer to you at his place soon as his sister leaves the room brings his arm closer to your nose and asks you to smell him and then leans over you and asks you to smell his neck away and that sudden rush theofjb you the second he does that and moves away soon as he hears his sister coming back by then that state of you shocked high on him suddenly when you were least prepared to and then having to act normal before his sister as he stands away and that adoooooooorably chuckles away to the state of you….his sister asking away what was wrong with uou not saying a word nothing and him laughing at you!!!!!

Only after as his sister goes downstairs you runnnnto his room literally as he was playing something on his computer and hold him chummi away and him still laughing as you chummi him in between the chummi too like he knew exaaaaactly what he did to you and why you came running to him!!!!!

Only after he tells you that it was some new Palmolive floral body wash he tried that day and first thing he thought of was for you to smell him and the scent on him!!!!!

That very day in the shower it was a floral one cause you usually go for citrusy ones and this one your mom got for you and was in your bathroom and the first scent of it brings him along brings this very memory of him along!!!! 

It’s the waaaaaaays slightest of things brings him along lately like pretty much anything to everything even in the nights just staying up keeping your mind awake to check on your mom there was that sense of him scent of him shoulder of his as you lay over rest over and that one strong scent of him every other second it’s that sudden comfort when your mind was that disturbed it’s that sudden him holding you away even as you stay up and pray to baba!!!!!

It’s not just the rush that he comes along with it’s also in your most difficult time like recent one he comes along as weirdly insane as it sounds as much as you were most alone there was him…….so much in away that only made you wish for him for his presence for real with you beside you and not just in your head!!!!!!