Moments!!!!!

 It was that very moment of the guy standing at the entrance looking at you brings that moemnt of him standing at the gym door like that stark difference……

That first visual did bring that much fear in you just by someone’s presence like then you didn’t even know how much worse it was going to be having that guy walk around looking at you before the girlfriend too and there was Him walking through the gym door and towards you that way and that very visual of him did fill you up with something that beauuuuuuuuutoful that very first time itself…like the first guy you looked at without blinking an eye or wanting to look away even with his head down looking at the tiles below and walking that way…….and that first time feeeel in you where everything on the inside felt that change felt that shift like something moved in you and boy it moved that strong it could never go back to what it was before him…

Like that one move with him and it’s been that way ever since then…

It’s that feeeeeeinf charlie when you compare two instances that had the biggest strongest impact on you one that was so negative and one that was the most beautiful thing ever happened in your life - Him…!

Lil did you know that one gorgeous being wonder of the world was soon going to change your life change you away and how!!!!!!

Like after that moennt you kept yourself in the other room staying that way with his music even after manager comes over worried what was wrong with you as you were shivering for 2-3 hours after that too!!!!!

And you were choking bad with fear couldn’t speak at all and that too did happen after very long cause too much fear chokes you like you can’t speak even if you try to!

And that need to come home and you just keep your head over your moms lap still imagining him away and just stay that way for an hour or two without changing and she without asking you knew it had to do something with that same fear so she doesn’t ask immediately!!!!

Something’s you recall as you write this feel again now!