Dreams!!

 When you avoid watching scenes even when on your own late night movie watching jsut soooo it doesn’t make it worse what you already miss post his dreams…and then to live a part of it on big screen and the waaaay it takes you back to those almost moments with him when you lived almsot something with him at opera…the before and after visuals of him and umrushing through you ever since the movie…

To live that rush of him to live that rush for him and asking him not to stop and him stopping away saying not going beyond this and that rushhhhhh in you to hold him away hide away in him not knowing what you weee feeling away what you weee waiting away cause it was almost there…but that rush in you wanting more not knowing what!!

That beauuuuuuty of those moments was hiding away in him and the waaaaay he would hold you a lil away look you in the eye and raise one eye brow asking away what’s happening karely don’t know but just want to be close like post that you just wanted to smell him the closest feel him the closest touch him the closest for sometime always…..the way he would just let you be that way and talking something away on his own knowing exactly what and how you were confused feeling that way for him…and then slowly asking ab chale cause it used to get that late in evenings there…

Some moments you write and this sudden feeeeeel sudden rush it overloads you with right now is just beyond!!!!!!!!

To those very moments post bup with that same feeeo almsot there like the first time living it for real to that wait for the next time and he leaves for Bombay for his film then…

And then it was!!!!!!!!!!

It’s that feeeeel charlie when the only time you’ve ever felt ever lived with the only person you’ve felt or lived with or felt for that matter and!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!