People n places!!!!!

 The day started off with that wait in you to feel him away out for this event of a friends back to work sorting things out immediately out for fabric n more work all through that one state of mind to find some moment of him and keep switching between tack to find that him zone that you can stay lost in while she keeps talking bout work and you make sure to keep your eyes glued outside window finding that one zone to lose yourself in……

Then some call of the people who helped you with your account access and she wanted to come visit the store and meet you in person with her team and rush back to the studio and soon as she comes in that scream of joy just seeing the studio cause she had been following your page over years now and calls herself your fan and the way she starts off talking bout how you looked and stuff is when it hits you bout your looks!!!!!!

It’s one of those things again that went missing with your intention to dress up like you used to for him now it’s mostly anything shirt or sweatshirt like you don’t dress up pretty or feminine also cause work atmosphere doesn’t permit you to being around the staff also mainly otherwise also meeting friend or anything pretty is out with him ever since that absence of him you just don’t feel like it…..

Today when she was holding your hand that itself felt ajeeb to the moennnt when she requests for a hug and then holds you away that very second it moves you shakes you up also when you realise that’s how your body gets that used to that one touch one sense of someone that it refuses any other subconsciously like it just knows it’s not the same one that it was THAT used to…..

And she senses it in you and apologised for the same……but it was that strange experience today which in a way felt beautiful to just know how much your brand is truly loved and then for her to keep calling you pretty actually made you look at yourself in the mirror and those flashbacks of you feeling that way bout yourself back then……

Cause he made you feel so!!!!!!

Even writing it now those sudden flashbacks looking in the mirror just before heading out to see him and tat feeeeeel for yourself yes looking pretty maybe should wear that instead or maybe this he would like like that state of mind just looking at yourself to this moemnt today and that feeeeeeeeeeel it left you with…

Head out for a drive soon as she leaves and this new coffee place just be with the music playing and this one lil guy comes to your table trying to take the croissant off your plate and the beauuuuuuuty of it was the kid wearing a tee that said 1986!!!!!!

How do you even not take this to be the THE him magic of the moemnt to just be there with you in that very moment when you were missing him the most!!!!!!