Core!!!!!

 U are like this puzzle of bits and pieces and he was that core part of you that completed thus puzzle of you!!!!!!

Like that main core part that exists in you without which you are not even you which is something you miss that bad no matter what or where you be….knowing it’s that only piece that completes you like no other……

Lil did you know with his lil lil smiles too much talk tooooo many nods to slow kicks to long walks to longer calls he would becomes all this away and the waaaaay it all rhymed in sync just the waaaay living those moments have been…….

Had no idea that one out of this world walk walking hooooman was soon going to become all this away and THIS way who bhi!!!!!!!

Every lil of him to all of him becoming meaning this much away like this even years decade after!!!!! 

Started with a string and only grown stronger with and over time…

Like it was connected iktara song words of the song to finding him with his music to wearing first ever Anarkali thing you’d ever known which he brought for you to now people actually saying you are first ones in Hyderabad to design Anarkali….

And everytime somebody says that that call of his from the store in Bombay as he was out shopping and he says he saw that same bottle green set that you’d liked sometime back at the store in Hyderabad and he saw the same thing in Bombay and also that he found this other blue which he loved and could almost picture you in it even with the outfit on rack…

Back then this concept and design of Anarkali wasn’t even there in Hyderabad it was only suits and stuff and he tells you bout this blue one asking which one and you just smile away and that adoooooooooooravky says wouch nai which I liked why did I even ask knowing you this well he added…..you tell him you wanted to come soonest but again it was a thing he did to hold a memory of a trip bringing something along out of his love and you tell him then it had to be what he loved and ayyyaaaaaaaaa the waaaaay it made him that happy charlie starts to chummi you away in a public space over the call as he even adds people around were looking at him and still goes on……

There was that beauuuuty charlie in becoming him like to dress up in him to dress up for him to just be the way he liked Kajal you loved to just a lil line the way he loved pink colors you loved to monotones and earthy he loved like not doing these to make him happy all of these and more eventually did become you…including the nail color thing back then darkest of colors you loved painting nails away to just painting for a few hours when you are mad missing him and upset over something just paint your nails and after 2-3 hours max that feeeeeel of it’s not you anymore and going back his way…

Even writin it out this feeeeeel now!!!!!!!!