Moments of self!!!!!

 Today just spending that kind of alone time looking around feeling him away feeling yourself away made that much more sense…

It’s this thing charlie sometimes going by the way you are living your life may come across as stuck up but today spending that time there made that much more sense that that’s something you definitely are not!!!

In fact if your insides give up on something they just do like you go by the feeeels in complete entirety of the moemnt!!!!!

Be it leaning to drive you just couldn’t and give up and trying to get back to your usual spending your own time on you routine of workout and himhigh moemnt a post workout!!!!!

Cause the previous one was only making the entire shxudke through the day all the more hectic plus having to take calls whilst learning you weren’t just couldn’t…to few work things you give up easy if you don’t feel it even if it’s about a lot of dyed fabric ready to work with you don’t feel it get then redyed ignoring the time again it will take…to taking this step in your life of this way of life and love….this is one biggest thing of your life that wasn’t even upto you!!!!!!

It was what your heart all of you felt and went with that very same flow the way it made you feel…

It’s nothing that’s upto you like for you to decide or choose it was has been something that chose you and not the other way around…

U tried your best and that’s something you alone know but eventually it landed you where you were always meant to be like even if that meant trying to keep your mind off writing him or living those random chor wale moments of seeing his story with the only intention of living something kuch bhi of him in some way possible……..

Cause you know what it means to you even be it seeing that one thumb of his switching up the volume as he films the first rains away with his sound of music…like there was your poooooora heart right there over his thumb like you weee that happppppppy and HOW to just see his thumb even as mad ass crazy as it sounds that’s really how happy every bit of you on the inside was ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa that’s his hand his thumb switching up the volume bolke even recalling it now ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaa some feeeeeels I swear!!!!!!!