From that to THIS!!

 Two days back bout out to meet this friend for shoot discussion over late evening coffee after bout an hour she leaves and then you just bout getting into the car the strong stench of alcohol you could smell in the car just getting in and the driver comes over holding your leg almost trying to get u in thing usually Venkatesh used to just hold the door this time with that strong stench of alcohol you did sense he was drunk and look around and find this liquor store opp side……

That sense same sense of fear that chokes you up and you couldn’t utter a single word like u just couldn’t speak and immediately get off the car call her back and ask her to drop you home as she was just around the galli and ask the driver to drop the car back home……

That night you couldn’t speak say to your mom what it was bout could t fall asleep and stay up in the Balcony listening to his music away…….

That same fear was back after a very very long time same choky feel that u can’t speak even if you try to the next day tel your mom bout it and he was fired but the next thing was to find some office help to sort the material thing out plus a driver is when you decide this time tho fully learning driving this time…

Interviews for the store and production help for fabrics and lining and materials and this intern applies the residence being Ramanthapur ayyaaaaaaa it was an immediate yes I say!!!!!!

The guy knew bout your brand already and was following the page since very long and that one line in the interview today mam always dreamt of being a part of your brand somethings nai hit you like a ray of sunshine…at one point you were that closed to asking the manager to ask the guy to bring Ramanthapur ke pictures along as it had been very long since been there nai…

Again one of those iodiotic things your heart yearns for that has no absolute sense but all feels I say!!!!!!

It’s been this huge wave of being hit away with weird feels last two days charlie to relive that fear and the very next amidst the interviews a friend calls and you couldn’t answer so u text her back saying sorry will call soon as I’m home or something and she for strange weird fucking reason texts you back saying u keep feeling sorry and feel sorry for life or something !!!!!!!!

At that point you let it go knowing she is almsot going through divorce and a miscarriage too but she messages another something and that hit you!!!!

U message her back saying there’s not a single thing in your life that you feel sorry bout and hope she gets well soon and talk soon text!!!!!

Stay up again like it all plays on a replay mode suddenly…it’s that point in life when u look back and feel very content about the decisions made decisions u stayed with and decisions u made to change something! !!!!!!