How do you even!!!!!

 This morning after having lived and been loved that much you wake up looking to your side and don’t find him still looking at you like you don’t understand what had just happened like you get off and look around literally walk to the washroom to check if he was there and then suddenly it hits you it was a dream..

Like all of you on the inside outside that THAT sure that he was there with all that love for real and then to realise it was a dream it took you sometime to get off and make sense with it…

Ever since that dp up it did hit you with that feel of him finally having…….and you try your best to keep your mind very very busy as busy as it busiest can be just so you come home exhausted and straight to bed and on days when work was easy you come home workout and then to bed and even then there have been moments where himcoming had a different completely different story to tell and express with his presence…

Like you wake up and you can’t make sense of anything but just that one feeeeeeeeel of his dream his presence that takes you over and now!!!!!!!

To these random most lilst moments even today when there was an immediate buyer for your previous one in the apartment itself and you had to come home for the papers and in the lift this kid with his mom like he was tiny soon as he enters the lift he turns around and checks you out and you smile and he waves a hi and turns your way and keeps conatsntttr staring and his mom turns his head away and he turns back to you and smilingly staring away constantly and his words rush throug you when back then being a school teacher you talk bout the kids being fond of you hugging you and stuff and he warns you saying be careful Bacchae aaj kal jaldi bade ho jaaate what you take it to be harmless kid hug they are not thinking the same way and chuckles awaaaay that adooooooorably!!!!!

Like you were having a school chat with him over Skype sharing school stories and day at work and he talks bout this kid psychology in the most adooooorabkest possessive way possible !!!!!!

Today as you feel that sense of uncomfortable with that stare weirdly his words rush through you cause again it happened cause you smiling back at the kid and then his mother holds the kid laughing away tells you he is being the perfect example of the imperial men will be men advert at that very tiny age and you tell her she is going to have a tough time soon and she laughs it and the waaaaay that moment brings him along as you stay there in the lift with that smile pasted in your face and HOW!!!!!!