That Him, this you...

 Its just the waaaàaay anything to do with him charlie automatically tranforms you away andar se he like not mind wise but itsbjust that beauuuutifully natural like apne aap se it all just starts to feel better and then to see him is a happiness on another level like nothing in the world can possibly make you happy the way just seeing him smile does ayyyaaaaaaaa it's thatcone level of unmatchable Khushi his one face with that one smile any smile and specially this wide teeeth one was his signature smile after biting you away.....the way after bite he would show his teeth with eyes shut adooooooorably!!!!!!!

And every single time he used to do 5hatv it's that feeeeeeeel you live on the inside charlie seeing some visual living some moment like just seeing it it makes you sooooo soooo happy it's a level of happiness you can't reason out don't know it yourself but know sure that nothing else could make you feel that way.....that moment every single time he smiled that way was to you exactly that!!!!!!

His mere existence is happiness, like could do nothing at all and yet that feeeeeeel he gives away behind logics!!!!!!

To the today when you are finally fitting into the clothes after an year almost.....like you can def see the change in you physically skin wise now that yovve started to take care of yourself after having been too caught up at and with work for over an year.....

This thing again you wanted to wear with him wear it his way with the new jhumkis and his black bindi.....

It's that Khushi sudden with that wish and you come out the room and your mom first thing how pretty you looked after very long and the next fataak question don't you miss being loved!!!!!

Skip breakfast and dabba of lunch and head out for work.....

A lil early than usual cause you had to finish abfew things at work.....

But the way question leftbyou with another question how do you even answer that after having lived moments like the ones you lived this morning with him even be it in the dream......

This very line of difference between the dream and reality, that you can't explain or define in words....or even tell somebody bout what and how much it means to you!!!!!