Him!!!!!

 It's just these feeeeel charlie lately after all that recall reliving some dates and just realising how CLOSE he was that day to it being years now but somehow just couldn't get used to the idea of the whole thing.....the way some dates still can make you feel the THE him from that day and all that you felt away that day to that feeeeelbof finally being close to him closest to him to just that realisation lilst bhi had no idea nai then......it's just this him charlie visuals of him his every expression every smile his just walking towards you just waiting at the door when somebody just rings the doorbell like before stepping out of his room turns looks at you comes back stays there and just that stare the way it was all coming back to you his way of love for you back again......

Just that whole vibe of him that day was something else like even all around with Jim jam biscuits around bananan chips hide n seek and he would just look around look back at you like it was all connecting one dot after the other with that feeeel of a step closer to him...

To just that realisation how he stopped meeting soon after you started writing like this weird feeel ever since then to write bhi and not write bhi......it feels ajeeb sometimes like maybe you wrrent supposed to write your wishes out and universe responds back in another way .... like it's that weird confusion!!!!!

To just reliving that idea that feeeeeeel of him being that close to you like keep shutting your eyes even amidst work to relive a moment from back then to just relive that feeel of him being that close to you his presence him being beside you to just live his presence for real like it all stilll feeels like one dream reliving it even now as you write....