Mornings!!!!!

 Yesterday or last few days rather that weird state of mind and watching reading the book words and phrases that strong connecting vibe with evry page you read.....to last night when almost alseep watching the movie or series or something and stilll not fully asleep state you just see him sitting that close to you back at that house of yours on the stairs and looks right through you with his one hand over your leg like he used to back then.....like just for a second or something this one visual and the waaay it shakes you up and you wake up and from there on it was like a visual loop of evrything him right from the start to the initial moments and details and you slept pretty late!!!!!

This morning almost noon rather changing sides yaaaaah this one thing lately it's been these series of cuddle snuggle dreams of his not sure if it's the upgrade from looking for him wandering in search of him to living his closeness soo yaaah this morning too as you change side and as you turn this sound of music playing of music playing in the background and you see to your side there he was in a navy blue vest kinda thing oversized one that beauuutifully loose vitted on him him lying down tummy side on bed like he used to that beauuuutifully half covered in his red blanket!!!!!

That one instant mountains of Khushi rushing through you even as the realisation of him right there hits you and suddenly the music playing in the background slows down like suddenly the beats the rhythm sound almost in slow mo like......

The way his one hand holding onto your arm that one face THAT one face in the world for you turned leaned over towards you that one beauuuuutiful calm all over his face and that slightest hint of almost smile like he knew you were living and all lost in him as you go a lil closer to just live him his beauuuuuuuutiful details from upclose and the way he gently nibbles over your arm again something he most loved and in that still asleep shy smile tone of his voice he adds am for real you fool and nibbles again and lays his face over your palm......

That one face that one him with his face on your palm right there you can't even imagine what and HOW it felt like in that very moment charlie!!!!!!!!

The one face you've missed the MOST in your life that one face yohve loved lived the most in your life right there in your palm!!!!!!!!

Something's you recall relive that very moment again and write out and THIS feeeeeeeel now!!!!!