something's!!!!!!!

 Right from that moment of waking up the lost state of mind just kept growing even weirder.....

Lately with this new feeelingnof him missing you through the day thinking of you like you can just feeeel the rush that strong!!!!!!

Know it in your gut kinda strong to the series of his dreams telling you more so the very same thing.....

To this one moemnt from this yesterday dream when he asks you not touch him and you stop right there to thise words of his from the chat telling you he has moved on long back like it all takes you back to the reality of it....not having met him for this long for real to him not wanting to keep in touch with you any kind of communication for this long....like the reality bits keep striking through one after the other.....the state of mind just felt weird and lost!!!!!

Take the day off at work and just be with his music hoping it makes it better skip lunch n dinner both and that question from your mom what were you protesting today for like you skipping food is when you are upset over something and wanting to take that stand......and that sound of his words from back then when you skip food and he just knew it without even you telling him bout it and he that adooooorably asks you protest kariii na mere liye didn't have food!!!!!!

It all just felt very different charlie like ekdum seeee mooh ke samne reality ku bithaa diye type laga.....like ab iska kya karu where you are at suddenly kinda vibe it had like you coúkdnt just shrug it off!!!!!

Call for a chocobar again his fav which now is your fav thing most in monsoons like this one love to have cone ya stick Wale icecream with rains is another level of love i say!!!!!

Some moments just stick away to your kind basss chipakich jaaate.....

And you try and do things that can make it better tried a zillion things but didn't work this time!!!!!

Last few days this beauuutiful to the day before when you sit and watch all Subhash Ghai films possible that make you miss him the most and then land up with one weird in your face slap kinda moment that ruins it all away and how!!!!!!