Visuals!!!!!

It’s been like signs everywhere holding you closer to him with him himself coming and making sure telling you so assuring you so holding you closer and telling you over n over again him missing you him still loving you and exactly this what you were holding back from writing out…..cause kabhi lagta nai charlie now when you read these very things out like in your dreams with him in your head it still sounds sane call it magic but now when you write it out it all just gets that much weirder…

That day out to get some home stuff and you find this beautiful had to be blue floral mug homecentre evey single time when there the waaaay that day with him and his sister shopping for his home stuff the waaaay he was holding you closer like as you walk with his sister the way he would after his sister walks a lil farther away he would pull you back with your top literally pull you closer to him and just make you hold his arm his way and locking it in over your waist side…..

The corner his stares him just wanting you to be closer him asking to pick sheets for his room pillow cover stuff like those his sister asking yih to pick his towel too from that to that view of the tibbs frankie the late evening lunch dates with him there in his car with him waiting for you to finish your 3/4th like he knew that wellllllllll exact at which point you leave it for him to have the rest and sometimes him being adoooooooooooootable make you open your mouth make you literally take another few bites in that adooooorable scream tone or voice saying today you left more for him and then have the rest…….

It’s these lilst memories from those days moments rush through you when there like suddenly it’s all him as you are on FaceTime with mom asking her stuff and you keep going black finding him in corners spaces with feeling his hand away or that whisper of his like you keep going black and drop the call and just be finally…

It’s like when you knowwwwwwww all of you instead just wants to live him away in his space and HOW…..

Also when you always make sure to visit the men’s section and again find him in things you would’ve loooooooooooved to see him in……

Maybe also why sometimes some tee shirts or shirts you would’ve loved to see him in you end up buying anyway tees you wear them again with that one weird feeeeeel why did you even this time tho it also ended up with men’s footwear…

Strangely charlie loving him living him in things you would’ve loved to see him in has lead to you buying things for yourself from men’s wear more often and loving them eventually!!!!!

Strange nai the waaaaaaaaays of the heart I tell you!!!!!