His way of love…!

 Working on pooris was finding another version of him that day finding another version of his love for you!!!!!!

Like all through those few mins that one face of his watching you stayed with you even after all these years like this very moment to shut your eyes and relive that very moment to relive that him from that very moment ayyyaaaaaaaa mera poooora ka poooooooota heart he is I swear!!!!!!

To that moment when he hears his dad was back from work to one after the other coming home and he takes the sheera out saying Shriya banayi Shriya banayi loudly and uncle was about to go up change and stuff and instead come over at the table including the others not because you had cooked but because they could hear and sense that Khushi in his voice as you bring out the pooris and uncle actually mentions about serving him first cause you THAT badly wanted to and wasn’t sure of doing it amidst everybody else and that face charlie that one him I swear even with everybody around the way he just would t take his eyes off you cause he was that happy!!!!

First bite in and that one bigger smile nodding his head as others to start ear the first bit and he actually says it out loud tasty hai nai like literalllllly looking at everybody’s face and saying it like he was making sure they all say it’s nice and they laugh over it and unckle actually says it was nice just a lil more sugar was needed…….

And everybody gets up and he still sits there eating one small bite after the other like he was relishing every morsel as he ate in there are something’s that make you happy charlie and there’s that one thing that makes your heart happy makes your inside happy like every inch every cell in you alive and happy happiest it’s ever been to you it’s always been Him!!!!!!

The sight sound smell taste sense feel presence or absence it’s always been him…!

And HOW!!!!!!

That day to live that side of him to live that version of his love for you was something else…..to know this could be love too this too is Love in the most beauuuuuuuutiful of ways!!!!!!!

Soon done gets a lil Dabba from inside and starts to fill it up and you ask him what he was doing that for and he mentions bout taking it to your place of something you specially cooked for him cause he always knew you had no clue about cooking and yet wanted you to make something for him and that something did become that special to him…

That day making that sheera your mom wiping your face and insisting you leaving it she will finish it and you just didn’t want to cause making that sheera that day was reliving him and his love for you!!!!!!!!

To finally to the temple and you get off and actually go with mom soon there like everytime you see baba the way the zillion complaints jump right out cause baba had always been the only one as kids you ever prayed or believed in…

And then to lose him was like losing that sense of belief in the other most believed aspect of your life Sai baba…..

But that day something just shifted in you charlie like the second you were there that one beautiful calm and you still had the smile on you know that cause there was this one cleaning lady smiling at you as she and the Pantulu ask you to leave the dabba before baba and even add that you cooked for baba you serve baba!!!!!

It was beautiful touch the feet and first thing you see is with him at the Rani Gunj temple soon as he was back from Bangalore!!!!!

Head out sit out while the Aarti goes on and that one beauuuutoful calm something you’d experienced and finally decide to be there every Thursday and to skip non veg n daaru again on Thursdays again!!!!!!

Something’s you donno why you do what you do it’s that one experience charlie that one shift you experience that sort of does it for you to you it was that that whole vibe of that day!!!!!!

It was that sense of being grateful for having found Him in your life, being thankful to baba for Him…!