Thursday 25 April 2019

The now....

wearing his hippie t shirt a few days back after some dream living him in now telgu songs that you cant even make sense of liivng him in dreams that you cant make sense of..... through the day random most moment location hunting finding him again in sunsets having lived the same one back then with him at the stadium place when you found that beauuuuuuutiful comfort in and with his presence for the first time.....

that actually made you feel that beautiful sense of togetherness.... when you discover what and hows it to feel that way for the first time.....

to on your way back home when all your way this one cement truck all along with you beside and that one feeeeeeeeeeeeeel i swear.....

first chummmiii wait and how and the waaaaaaaaay that one adoooooooooorable chuckle of his just watching you with you pouting away waiting for that chummi.....

when you live and find him in moments like these and that feeeeeeeeel after.....

home drunk and missing high all the more and howwwwwwwwwwwww you actually managed to stay awaay fromw riing that missin out just sooo you dont end up writing what you shouldnt be writing open here.....

to that another feeeeeeel of his presence that one touch of his presence and the waaaaay it shakes and wakes you up....

its like all of this is LIFE your world now......

that one moment when you wake up from that dream of his like THAT close to unblocking him cause of the waaaaay it makes you feel and that one question to the self just when you were bout to - WHY !!!!!!!!

why do smthing when its the exact opp smthing that someone wants out of you for real.....

its this beautiful mix of smthing you feel charlie specially after waking up from living him in that way...... to just hear him that way say the things he does.....

and that same need to wear smhing of his and just do what said take a pic and put it up.....

without even unblocking.....

smthings again beyond logic or sense.....

def the baddest one with the hair looking even worse but that one most beauuuuuuutiful thing bout it you were wearing his love on you...

its also in moments and with moments and dreams like these the now feels way much more better than what it actually is...

it sort of fills up all those loop holes of your actual story now....

THAT much love i say !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its like you blink through the day feeeeeeeling him the more with it.....

and when you wake up after feeeling him the waaay you did hours back and then couldnt write it clear that neeed to head out for a walk just soo you could be fully up and able to write it out.....

again one of those things that dosnt make any sense but what and how it makes you feel is smthing you alone know of......


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