his smileeeee his daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaadi him in whiteeee his beauutiful sky like forehead his hands ayyyaaaaaaaa his hands that beauuuuuuty of his silky baaal over his hands again your most looooooved touched..... to just feeeeel live loooooove adooore him charlie.....
like those few mins that you just be living him in the pic - HAPPINESS !!!!!!!!!!
after a veryyyyyy long time !!!!!!!!!!!!
VERY !!!!!!!!
to once that sudden ting tings you of the model being out any moment now get on seeing the rest of the pics with that one thing when he is in a happier place now with his complete family and happy......
it was that realization today of loving him more as your best friend also.....
when you just be seeing those pics one more time again....
that one feeel of not being a part now......
get off delete the history and keep her fone aside....
and head out to just be....
like you needed to get away for a bit to let that khushiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii rushing through you to sink in for a bit just sooo you could head back with a normal face on....
its like it was THAT much him rushing through you that you couldnt calm it all down.....
finally get out from there and head to the coffee shop downstairs and just be....
this thing bout just gazing away into the traffic like it sort of spaces your mind out like you can feeel your mind all the more even looking away at the crowd....
when you love someone you tend to be more gentle more careful more thoughtful and all of that.... with him loving him you did learn this bout love... discover this bout love to treat love as fragile like that thing of handle with care.....
its that fragile.....
like its not smthing that you again decide choose or think it over, it must happen naturally.... like you know loving them with care handling them with care putting them first.....
its not smthing you decide choose or pick this over that kind.... just happens !!
knowing how lilst of smthing that hurts him has a larger impact on him and again that thing that makes it worse is him not never being verbal bout it.....
like he would never really tell you this hurt him that annoyed him.... like you can just feeeeeel it in his face in his expression in the way he moves.... in the way he would just sound normally....
like you can just feeeeeel it in him even if he is not verbal bout it....
and family was smthing that did disturb him the most then... as it was falling apart then......
and having lived that side of him and knowwwing how much it hurts him this feel today as you finalllly see him happy with his family all the people that he needs wants with him in his life....
and suddenly you dont feel part of it as you still were seeing it from somebody elses acc like if nothing else that alone was a proof big enough....
how far you really were now...
if you cant be the love being someones confusion is the worst of all !!!!!!!!
its like you suddenly felt that sense of why what you were doing even....
he is in a happy place now finallyyyyyyyyyyy and thats what you have always wanted him to be as.... and keeping you away was the reason why he dint want to disturb what he has now.... his family.....
and you being still around dint make any sense !!!
like looking out at the chaos outside sort of clearing it up inside of you.....
get on whatsapp block him back and get off.....
this time for real now !!
like those few mins that you just be living him in the pic - HAPPINESS !!!!!!!!!!
after a veryyyyyy long time !!!!!!!!!!!!
VERY !!!!!!!!
to once that sudden ting tings you of the model being out any moment now get on seeing the rest of the pics with that one thing when he is in a happier place now with his complete family and happy......
it was that realization today of loving him more as your best friend also.....
when you just be seeing those pics one more time again....
that one feeel of not being a part now......
get off delete the history and keep her fone aside....
and head out to just be....
like you needed to get away for a bit to let that khushiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii rushing through you to sink in for a bit just sooo you could head back with a normal face on....
its like it was THAT much him rushing through you that you couldnt calm it all down.....
finally get out from there and head to the coffee shop downstairs and just be....
this thing bout just gazing away into the traffic like it sort of spaces your mind out like you can feeel your mind all the more even looking away at the crowd....
when you love someone you tend to be more gentle more careful more thoughtful and all of that.... with him loving him you did learn this bout love... discover this bout love to treat love as fragile like that thing of handle with care.....
its that fragile.....
like its not smthing that you again decide choose or think it over, it must happen naturally.... like you know loving them with care handling them with care putting them first.....
its not smthing you decide choose or pick this over that kind.... just happens !!
knowing how lilst of smthing that hurts him has a larger impact on him and again that thing that makes it worse is him not never being verbal bout it.....
like he would never really tell you this hurt him that annoyed him.... like you can just feeeeeel it in his face in his expression in the way he moves.... in the way he would just sound normally....
like you can just feeeeeel it in him even if he is not verbal bout it....
and family was smthing that did disturb him the most then... as it was falling apart then......
and having lived that side of him and knowwwing how much it hurts him this feel today as you finalllly see him happy with his family all the people that he needs wants with him in his life....
and suddenly you dont feel part of it as you still were seeing it from somebody elses acc like if nothing else that alone was a proof big enough....
how far you really were now...
if you cant be the love being someones confusion is the worst of all !!!!!!!!
its like you suddenly felt that sense of why what you were doing even....
he is in a happy place now finallyyyyyyyyyyy and thats what you have always wanted him to be as.... and keeping you away was the reason why he dint want to disturb what he has now.... his family.....
and you being still around dint make any sense !!!
like looking out at the chaos outside sort of clearing it up inside of you.....
get on whatsapp block him back and get off.....
this time for real now !!
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