To live…!

 To live someone as you love them, this art of loving someone this way of loving someone was something you did learn from him cause that was exactly how he loved you…something’s again you write and re read it it hits and hurts you on another level nai that blink of realisation of something like that……..in past tense!!!!!!

Exactly what you’d felt writing the moemnt out about having to watch his first film and his words over the Skype call saying those very words and then to landing back to the other recent chat and his words again that one huge wall of difference and it’s also times like these when this world of dreams and moments is one world and this one the other that he actually made it clear with you about!!!!!!

But despite of all this there is this still strong connection that makes you keep going back to how and what it makes you feel like that same him in dreams literally talking sharing his love for you in actions and words sometimes…

Soooo yaaaah back to movie…….

Been working on lil lil changes on the interior front as the shoots are mainly indoors now so changing redoing up a few corners had you all tied up and couldn’t manage sometime out and finally when you do the very first thing that you thaaaat badly wanted was to see this film of his that he had edited and the second the movie starts to that first scene of bangles on her hand the white n red the same white bangles that he had got for you from Bangalore……the waaaaay it fataaak se brings that smile on you and that strange feeeeling of something that beautiful His presence…

To as you watch more that feeeeeeeling charlie was a beauuuuty beyond words he was here his hands all over the work it’s his work his edited crafted his handcrafted something first to watch it on big screen just like he talked about a decade back…..

It just felt very very beauuutifully different thought it wasn’t his directed one or written one but it was his work charlie his handcrafted something something that he had his hands on he was right there in that very same place his jazzy sock story as it’s raining out from that very place like it all rushes through you manager asking something and then commenting how she’d never seen you watch any movie like that before……

Cause it actually felt like that heart swelling away with pride and that much joy like you wish you could get off head over to the screen and just hold hug it away screaming it’s his work to the wait for the end credits some Rao to assistant some vishal and you still wait doesn’t happen……

And that inside lil conversation same feeels ye log sab yahi hai kaam koi aur Kare naam kisi aur ka like sometimes the same happens with you too outfits yours and the name these so called celebrity’s tag is of the stylist but overall that one feeeeeeeel charlie like it was that experience of visually living his dream his words and with that much Khushi rushiiiiiiing through you recalling reliving his face his words of someday karely someday….