to just feeel that vibe of woaah someone knows you waaay more than you or anybody in your family did is prolly the most beautiful thing.....
to just feeeeeel it !!!!!!
and ever since that first talk with him those meets every meet the waaay it only kept growing, him knowing you way more than you ever did or your mom did.....
like lilst of things and the way it would make you go back home and question your mom if at all she knew that bout you be it your habits or those black spots on you like you asking her if she knew you had on your chin under your jaw on your hand kinda questions.....
to your annoying habits of one thing landing to the other like asking her did she know that if you do this this is what you would do next....
it was THAT khushiiiiiiiiii of just realizing the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaays he just knew you.....
and teh waaaaay he took that thing of knowing you to the most beauuuuutiful level in that recent meet....
smthings you dont wanna write dint write for years now kept your mind off cause you knewwwwwwww the after feeels the state of mind it would land you in...
but for today like you just need to this very same day !!!!!!!!
when he did give you yet again one of those most beauuuuuutiful moments of his love for you....
having feared just the thoguht of it almost all your life the waaaaaay he just holds your head and pulls you closer like not letting you know initially bout the moment...... and holds away in chummmii and takes away that fear of your life and fills it with his love.... just looks at you chummming you away through the moment......
initially after same look away from him and he plays a movie and still keeps looking at you and that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
smthings to write as you just hold the key look at the screen and have this smile on cause you wanna write and cant write too !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
it was that feeeeeeling charlie that one thing bout that fear of your life for that very same thing..... almost all your life you feared the feel of it thought of it llike there was always that thing bout fear attached to it.....
and the other thing bout years in love and finally to live the love and whoo bhi the waaaaay he was just there with you holding you away dheeree se knwoing your reaction how it might just shake you away knwoing your fear for it..... the waaaaaaaaaaaay he just knew you in that very moment too.....
cause otherwise he lets you set yourself free and chilllaaaaaa awaaay literally through moments but like that day he knew there would be that sense of fear of that shaking you away kinda thing..... holding you through !!!!!!!!
when after writing you realize you wrote out too many details you shouldnt have openly but this one state of mind just reliving that day reliving that sense of him knowing you loving you THIS much is making you feel in this very moment here !!!!!!!!!!!1
might delete tomo or later or the very next sec but in thsi moment here this need to write out to feel out the moment.....
SMTHINGS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this mind now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ek hotaa theers no love charlie and ek hotaaa when theres this much love and yet..............................
to just feeeeeel it !!!!!!
and ever since that first talk with him those meets every meet the waaay it only kept growing, him knowing you way more than you ever did or your mom did.....
like lilst of things and the way it would make you go back home and question your mom if at all she knew that bout you be it your habits or those black spots on you like you asking her if she knew you had on your chin under your jaw on your hand kinda questions.....
to your annoying habits of one thing landing to the other like asking her did she know that if you do this this is what you would do next....
it was THAT khushiiiiiiiiii of just realizing the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaays he just knew you.....
and teh waaaaay he took that thing of knowing you to the most beauuuuutiful level in that recent meet....
smthings you dont wanna write dint write for years now kept your mind off cause you knewwwwwwww the after feeels the state of mind it would land you in...
but for today like you just need to this very same day !!!!!!!!
when he did give you yet again one of those most beauuuuuutiful moments of his love for you....
having feared just the thoguht of it almost all your life the waaaaaay he just holds your head and pulls you closer like not letting you know initially bout the moment...... and holds away in chummmii and takes away that fear of your life and fills it with his love.... just looks at you chummming you away through the moment......
initially after same look away from him and he plays a movie and still keeps looking at you and that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
smthings to write as you just hold the key look at the screen and have this smile on cause you wanna write and cant write too !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
it was that feeeeeeling charlie that one thing bout that fear of your life for that very same thing..... almost all your life you feared the feel of it thought of it llike there was always that thing bout fear attached to it.....
and the other thing bout years in love and finally to live the love and whoo bhi the waaaaay he was just there with you holding you away dheeree se knwoing your reaction how it might just shake you away knwoing your fear for it..... the waaaaaaaaaaaay he just knew you in that very moment too.....
cause otherwise he lets you set yourself free and chilllaaaaaa awaaay literally through moments but like that day he knew there would be that sense of fear of that shaking you away kinda thing..... holding you through !!!!!!!!
when after writing you realize you wrote out too many details you shouldnt have openly but this one state of mind just reliving that day reliving that sense of him knowing you loving you THIS much is making you feel in this very moment here !!!!!!!!!!!1
might delete tomo or later or the very next sec but in thsi moment here this need to write out to feel out the moment.....
SMTHINGS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this mind now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ek hotaa theers no love charlie and ek hotaaa when theres this much love and yet..............................
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