Holding on holding only part smthing!!!!!!!!!!!

sooooooooooooooooooooo yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

frm that momnt of touch of his jacket ever since then like that feeeeeeeeeeeel of him wit his jacket on has beeen that feeeeeel of missing him and living him with that touch.....

like that feeel of his presence after not that long back then stil with you.....

like you can feeeeeel that tinkle smthing on your fingers the waaaaaay it makes you feel yourself whn you wear it.....

from wer to wer onlyyyyyyyyy it went !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sooooooo yahhhhhhh ever since that pic of his and that feeeeeeeeel of then and now like that change that differnrnce......

from loving you wanting u that bad in his life to this now.............

tht lilst sec of block!!!!!!!!!

tht quick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

even the bink of an eye woud be longer itttttttttttttteeee fataaaaak seee malooom chalie.........

soooooooo yahhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!

tht one feeeeeeeel like mized feeeeeeling be it that pain of change or to just feeeeeeeeel that pic more......

and u finallly poooora besaharaam hokeee ask him for the pic cos you coudnt get a pic bka then an dnow after seeeein him in a simlar jacket like basssss honaaaaaaaaa thaaaaaaaa chalieeeeeeee kaiseeee biii karkeeeeeeee...........

cos for you it was that same him in that jacket..... and u just wnted to havethat feeeeeel that one love from that moment in this pic of his with you......

jawaaab ni ayaaa not tht expcting but fir biii ek finall baaar bas pic thoo biii mil jaataaa thaaa....

that one feeeeeeeel of all of this and that feeeeeeeeel of that slap of blok......

and waiseee biii kaiii baar ayaaaa uneeeeee but aaaaaaaj subaaah to anther level only i say !!!!!!

on a mountain lil mountain peak and you walk to somewhere.....and that touch of his even beofr you could make sense of it the waaaaaay he jst holds your hand and makes you walk fatser with him.....

and try to move bck like you dint wnt to get used to that feeeeling likesmthing in you pulling back.... and the way he holds your hand tighter and close r t ohim...... pulling you litreally towards him jus sooo you walk fatser with him..... and as  you walk still loookig at him wondring when he would leave or diappear..... and these bells ringing the sound of temple bells the sound that familar......

and as you look arond the mountain was taller like dooor dooor sab aorund dikraa tha..... and to his side this some temple like wsnt clear anything around him the moutain the city dooor that uc dould see everyting apart frm him was that blur complete bur like u could only seee him that clear.....

him ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa him that beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutiful in a navy blue shirt and kaki chadddis... daaaaaaaaaadi in fulll bloooooooom i say his smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee fullllessssssst beauuuuuuuuuuutifulllest bloooom his eyes ek psy beeeedi maarke uthkeee ayaaaa ni bas ditttooooooooooo same to same face ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay it only makes him loook that beaaaaaaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutifullll !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happpppppppy highhhhhhh face of his is the ultmate definitoon of love passion adorableneeeesssss yummmmnesss allneeess in one visual i say !!!!!!!!!

like whooo dilemaaaa waaal situatiion hoo jati malooom iskuuu khaaaaaaaajaaaaaaanaaa yaaa bas  to live that beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuty of his..... like not misssing ut any expressin of his when that beauuuuuuuuuuutifully happpy high or make the most of it byyyyyyy etaing him awaaaaaay only is ay.....

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo yahhhhhhhhh agaaaaaain wer to wer !!!!!!!!!

and u try t ostop to take a loook and he againn pullls you clser making you contnue the walkk and a few steps awaaay themore you lve him that one strangeee fear in you watching him hold your hand teh waaaaaaaaay he was ab chodtaaa ab chodtaaa and that feeeeeel that fear makes you wnt to leave his hand..... you try to move your hand away like stp walking and try to move your hand awaaay and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he comes close takes your face in his hands and just stays looking at you......

like just lives that moment lives thta feeeeeeeeeel with you and just by the waaaaaaaaay he watches you kyaaaaaa huaaaaaaa ni maloooom and you just hold his hand get bck to walking.... like he just dosn that and moves away and waits ifnow youll hold his hand and you do.....

a lil steps away and this one white temple on his side again..... and as you seee stll walking n ask him sabbb tere sideee pe kaikuuu areee meraaa side why its plain without anyting.... and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he just nodssssssss awaaaaaaay that nod of his sgnature nod of his at your madness faltuu quetions.....

a few steps awaaay and you ask him agaiann ye kyaa hai sab like you know whta that place was it was sanghi before that it was the stadium place but like u coudnet make sense of where he was tking you and what those plances meant.....

and you stop and ask him what it was and the waaaaaaaay he again does that same thing takes your face in his hands like he used to back then and says im here im not going anywhere im here karely.....

and you ask him again that you know but what  those places were.....

like where we going and the waaaaaaaaaaaay he nods again that beauuuuuutifully smiles awaay that one smile when you dont get what he was trying to tell you.... which even after waking up you oculdnt....

and as he tries  to move this time you hold his hand closer and tighter with that fear again what if he leaves your hand and he again tells you holding your hand closer to his seeena this time saying im here karely im not going anywhere... and that one word trust me.... im not going anywhere!!

holds your hand that way and takes few more steps adn this time pulls you closer to him letting your head be over his shoulder.....

holding all of you this  time closes to him..... and you walk some more....

and this one turn or smthing and you wakeup wth that same echo of his voice still there again even after you woke up for the first ttime ever im here karely......

like you clearly remember your eyes open with that same search on ur pillow for him for his shoulder to leane over for his smelll as you take those usual deep breathes to smell his persence and you coud still hear him im here karely !!!!!

and the waaaaaaaaaaay that shakes you up with just that thought how could you stlll hear that echo of his voice that clear......