Decade…

Today this very day at gvk with him for wake up Sid to finding Sanghi temple how everything from there on the gulmohars the temple the music the movie Him becoming your own….moment after moment!!!!

The way he was doing everything possible that he could just to make you feel his love for you just to make you realise you were in love with him and you just didn’t know it!

To that night of conversation and that wait in his voice in his smiles to that feeeeel the way it all just felt different finally the stars above the meteor shower one shooting star after the other that makes him go on the terrace and actually live that moment live the night sky with you that was him his way of love for you to just live that moment with you and you show him which side it was to him and finally call it a night and the way he keeps mentioning and nothing else? And and

Like he did sense the change in you already and was waiting for you to say it cause he also mentions if you are waiting for me to say it first you know I wouldn’t so tell me!!!!!

Smthings even writing now was that a dream or it did happen for real!!!!!

If it wasn’t for that story of his today it would’ve felt it’s just you there was that beauty to that story charlie just the way it made you feel on the inside including that popcorn sticker came with that memory of his love for caramel popcorn mixed with the masala one to balance it out like he had that specific way of everything including the food he would order or anything to eat as simple as popcorn too which after did become yours too cause ordering that same combo of popcorn was living a moment of Him every single time when there!!!!

It’s that feeeel charlie after ordering looking at the popcorn every single time with that smile was like living him his presence in that popcorn around the washroom area every corner of that place that beautifully laced with all things him!!!!!

To him mention the same almost after decade finally home him talking bout movies to you was him just being there decade later it’s been 12 years charlie whowwww!!!!!!

Things when you finally say it out write it out feels even bigger!!!!!

Whowwww 12 years !!!!!!!!

Movie tho Banta aise story pe nai!!!!!

From that very first feel of love to understanding love to understanding living the other side of love passion madness innocence everything that it came with to the after of it the after of love everything that that came with when you least expected it all this journey it’s always been him this feeeel charlie to just write it out how it’s always been him just his touch his feel of love everything that you’ve ever lived loved bout love it’s always been just him!!!!!

Every lil moment lived with him lived him in the absence of him to that mention of his story that one place gvk it’s like all those places with him there is a him that you’ve lived that strongly the Starbucks place too him still waiting for you kowtowing that sure you’ll come back for him still amazes you decade later!!!!

How was he that sure of it!!!!!

To just see him standing there and the second he sees you that one beauuuutiful transformation of his every single time to just see him wait there for you that one rush ayyyaaaaa is ko kaiseee maloom thaa!!!!! That literally made you run back to him and hold him away publicly for the first time like in that moment you just didn’t care who was around where you were all that mattered was his expression charlie his wait being that sure of you coming back to him!!!!

It’s the love you shared it’s the way he just was made you love him more!!!!!

It was that feeeling still there like nothing to hurt him be it your mom too back then just to make sure he was happy he was loved he was cared for like it did become your ultimate priority ro just make sure he was loved cause he deserved every bit of it charloe to you he’ll always be that one human form of love and magic…

Times have changed but this one thing for him this one love for him just grows with time… also why you get mad at that one someone up above why have all this love and then fuck it ip like this!!!!!

But then the heart goes back to that one thought of just finding Him!!!!!

Goes back to the thank you just for Him!!!!!