To the day!

 It was a day made already with those initial rushes of him that you were filled with, this time of the year anyway is always like this all those initial days with him that first smile that first feel of him to loving living him to living his presence to live that feeling for the first time in life how someone’s presence that close to you was making you feel safe instead how liking things he liked to those first longest of conversations over the nite even as friends to that first touch first first hug first chummi how from lilst of him to everything him he was turning you into mentioning every single time that pride in his voice mine you are if he sees your mom hugging yih for some reason or you sitting longer with his sister in her room the sec he has your time with him the first thing always mine you are karely just mine…

And this was smthing you could just see it in him the waaay just the waaaay he would stand in a corner watch your mom hold you say smthing and him just looking at you to the same face same expression of his when with his sister playing some game or her painting your nails away holding your hand over your lap and Him standing at the door just watching you with that same face same expression and you can’t move run away to him can’t do a thing that one restless helpless feel the way him standing there that feeeeel of being drawn away to him like that one pull that you can feel it in your chest like the outside of you that still but on the inside there’s that strong pull you can feel him just watching you that way same feels!!!!

And the second with him that first hug that run to hold him away and the only thing first very thing he would mention mine you are karely!!!!

Smthings you relive and write now this one sudden blankness I say!!!!!

This sudden empty feel now when you realise what you had back then this one sudden huge hollow empty feeel this very moment!!!!!

The happiest the most content and complete you’ve been and felt ever in your life…!