Him!!!!

 That light through the trees Him those raindrops touching the leaf or trees that splatter that comes after the light right now through the trees as you write and live that feeling that state of mind just before fully falling asleep that flight n away slow move of the birds that brush of the wild wind against the skin that sound of some song from a distance that taste of food that warms your heart that sound of kids chuckle in the evenings under the apartment the morning search that random moment where you just felt him not sure with or how but just know felt him it’s all him all of these moments is him 

It’s having lived him that much being lived by him through this month his smiles every lil detail of him his hand movements his body posture whilst driving walking towards the car after finding that fav packet of his chips whilst on a long drive just cause finding it there made him happy still looking at that pack in his hand with that Khushi on his face cause he was that hungry to finally get in and then watch you still living him dekhi tu ye wala mila who bhi ye store nein to just watching you door se at the store at the gym at his place with his sister the waaaaaay he would just be not a word nothing but that khushiii on his face just watching you living your presence these were very moments when all you wanted to was to just run upto him and crush away dent away kinda hug him just hold him away with that pull that beauuutiful pull of his stare but again that need to just let him live his moment to just let yourself be seen that way by him no wonder this feeel even now this need to just be stared by him loved by him 

Something’s in you you just change charlie it’s not upto you cause changing that would mean changing the very existence of you like you not being you anymore you can’t change that can’t do that you can’t undo you that’s been done 

This is you now ever since this very October ever since Him

Moments random sounds n visuals never been the same ever again 

How lucky you truly did get Himmmmmmm ayyyaaaaaaaa this feeeeeel every single time you relive him from back then still amazes you he loved you THAT much!!!!!!!

Like THAAAAAAAAAT much!!!!!

To this one quote it’s you and after there’s just them something bout unconditional parental love!!!!

Some words again literally story of your life these versions of your love for him sudden changes sudden rushes with every moment where one moment you miss that adoooooooorable messy kid of yours to this other coming alive with his car picture to just relive in your mind that side of you from that drive the way some moments when you see yourself that way the way it feels like a dream eternity levels of time I say!!!!

Him that sunshine of your life that calm that Khushi that wild forest like that calm ocean kind that beauuuutiful tree n bird kind that adoooooorable child like anything that makes you feel life live life comes with Him…