MOST!!!!!!

 How’s it supposed to feeeeel when you finallllllllly think you’ve found the place where for the first time you felt MOST his as he called it back then post moment!!!!!!

Like he just had put a stamp on you the waaay he says it!!!!!!

The first chummi place…

This mind ever since yesterday coming home and then dropping mom back and again heading out for a late night drive yaha waha just cause like always when there’s too much him you just need to be on your own for a bit!!!!!!!

And to be able to be in a place of his like max percent you think it was somewhere around the same place to just be in the same view almost and that feeeeeeeeeeeeel of him yesterday the music the viiiiibe the rushhhhhh of him it was beyond anything else!!!!!!!

How do you even it’s like to be there to relive him holding your hand through the chummi and as done you tell him he was shivering and he instead again chuckles away comes a lil closer and says it’s ok nodding his head away if you shivered cause in a way you were conscious being your first kiss ever not knowing how to or what and just that feeeeeeeeeeel of him and you did shiver like shaky shiver and the waaaaaaaaay he just smiles away looking you in the eye constantly as you on n off look at him like couldn’t constantly look back at him…….and as you were looking to the other side he takes a picture of you…looks at it and says you look a lil his now comparing the earlier Gulmohar pic that he had clicked of you and this one now and that smiiiiiiiile on him!!!!!!!!!

Again your face wasn’t even in the frame it’s just that feeeeeel of the picture of the moennt that you’d just lived felt him for the first time like literally felt him …

And yesterday to be there and just on your way out to find the cement truck right outside it was one full circle of life it came around like!!!! 

It’s these moments places lived reasoning out why it was him and why now still and always be Him…