Moments!!!!!!

 This state of mind ever since having found him again when you wake up and your mom suddenly comes to you asking for how to complete the account sets up on Instagram…..like you’d just woken up still almost sleepy hazy state of mind and the way she asks you that instance that very instance that inside one loud scream found him!!!!!

Like you did think bout opening a random account jsut to be able to live him and that somehow felt all the more fcked up than him blocking you…

So you don’t, and when of all the things your mom does this on a youday of all days that level of sudden ironic Khushi was something else…

Be it that moennt to feeelinf that sense of lostmess to just mins back when you were looking for some work email I’d of some stylist and you type accidentally the number 96 as you had almost dropped the remote from your lap and saving it up you type 96 in the search tab and it shows this WhatsApp char saved email of his with his number on it…

And as you live that adooooooorableness of him in pictures of him looking his sexy best in gundu or sleeping position his nose twitch expression selfie and try and avoid reading the chat……get to work and yet that need to read and you skip work and stay and read his chat it was from 2016 Diwali time……and after months prolly breaks you down like this bad!!!!!!

Like the tears just wouldn’t stop as he mentions bout being drunk the night before and was just bout to call you for a second and doesn’t and the next day texts you saying the same…..to that moennt of him telling you wait for a day or two leke chale jaatu tujhe… 

Sometimes you just donnooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

Even writing it out now again saaale tears I tell you it’s this feeeeeeling charlie like he was just around and suddenly just disappeared all at once!!!!!!!

Like every single time almost there almost found him back and again!!!!!!!

That fellow na up above the sky why would he do something like this to the one and only thing you ever loved truly loved in your life and most importantly loved back like that by him…….

This thing this state of mind you also didn’t wanna write out but also this need to write out this feeling outta you cause the way it’s feeeeelinf away now!!!!!!