come so far...

 A total self appreciation need to write it out today!!!!!

This state of mind after a lot of thought past few weeks saving up for over an year been planning for an SUV work wise requirement too but just that need to self appreciate all the hard work overworking hours Sunday working days to just value ur work and effort you put in and get something finally.....to just get something for a change!

It's this merc suv and today finally go ahead with it to see and test drive and this first color that catches your attention immediately was a navy blue same exact color as his skoda back then...

Charlie some moments you just have no words for it it's like there's music playing all around that rush of investing in something huge all that on one side it's just that one moment the second you see that very same color all those flashes of his car parked in your Galli walking upto see him flashes from the opera flashes from the first chummi place where he takes a pic of you in it from the inside from th outside with that Lake as the backdrop and then shows em to you!

It's like a zillion memories visual moments lived watchjng walking upto the car getting in living him in it from the outside to just sharing that one stare with him with his hands over the top of the car leaning over watching you standing on the other side and that one look wanting you to stay back wanting you to not go home just to stay there with him in that moment that one face he makes just before dropping you seconds before you turn and go home that one stare across the car with you standing there.....

To teaching you how to roll up n down the window cause that was new to you to evry lil detail of memories around his car moments lived inside outside it's like standing there today living that moment of color his color and that feeeeeling it fills you up with!

Nothing in the world could would ever compare to anything to do with him that you've felt!

To finally loving the car and that close to finalising and your mom talks bout the third wave stuff and how it wouldnt be wise to invest at the moment!

It's that thing charlie you don't sp3nd on yourself nothing at all even the handbag still on past 1 year same one nothing that you really like watch fone upgrades your mom takes care nothing that you really want except something that you did!

But now work wise investments done with machine places workshop studio wise house taken care of it's this one thing that you'd been wanting or maybe it's just to upgrade but time I tell you.....

But today just standing there looking at the others manager mom likes the other different options but you just standing there living that shade of blue, that one color of his be ur car wise or the color on him...any color looks beautiful but that one specific tone of blue and whites ayyyaaaaa your poora ka poora heart right there on him every single time you used to see him in those!!!!!

Colors like music this beauty visually how they can change it all pick you up and put you in a place where you feel that specific moment specific visual the most...

Just like that a big day almost big day with another touch of His...!

It was something else that hour or two almost was something else, where nothing else inside the car outside the car barely mattered just that one color charlie just that feeeeel of living those moments along!