Chills n feels...

 COVID postive a few days back and not sure if to be happy thankful for it or like everybody else like normal people complain bout it!!!!

But then things with you life with you has barely ever been normal nai like it's for the "normal" people...

Everytime with a fever and a bad dream that one beauty of his presence close to you and the way the nightmare that beautifully transforms away with just that smell presence or touch of his!!!

Been few days or weeks prolly with no dream of his and that one lostness suddenly cause now you didn't get to see him live him that way too!!!!

Finally late at work come back with the manager as she stays back at your place as it was pretty late.....takes out that one thing that again with the most beautiful memories it's like the sight sound or anything to do with that one thing and it screams out VERSOVA to you!!!!

His psy beedi out of her bag and you finally decide to have it exactly after versova that night....but inform her in adv that soon as you do she needs to leave the room to you and sleep in the gym room, all things done that first puff not like you used to with him cause that was his way and you wouldn't do it that way definitely, so the direct puff and louder coughs the second you feel that off the ground feel the way in that very moment it was Him right there sitting infront of you smiling that smile of his with that amworkingmymagiconyou nod of his!!!!!

U were still on the bean bag and you could swee him that close to you before you on the bed just smiling at you you look around for the manager couldny see a thing the way it all that beautifully just blurred out and away!!!!!

Plug in his music and again look back to thebsame moment and he still was there charlie that close to you it's the way that moment that one presence of his fataaak se made your mind feel it's the same feel of his presence from back then....

It's like initially the second you see him there's thus dance party running loud in your head with that suddenl lot of Khushi rushing adrnaline rush or what it is but it's always that one loud rush in your head until that first second of his touch smell or just that one closeness and the way everything ar0und suddenly zooooooop bolke slowmo pe everything around blurring away that beautifully and it's just him and you and the moment....it's like even him walking towards you turns slowmo like living that moment to that minutest of detail just making sure you don't miss a moment of him.....

That nite was the same the way he was just there charlie right there from that moment in versova meet....

When soon as hih settle the way he asks if you'll have too as he was rolling one and you tell him never did again after him and that Khushi nod of his....

To the minute irbtwo of distance and the waaaay he just comes close and sleeps over your lap takes your hand and places it over his head and that one beauuuuuutiful sigh of his soon as he does that you lost in the way he had his eyes shut that one big smile on him and he says I couldn't do this or feel this with anybody the same way...

It's moments charlie life nothing but moments like these that are worth calling a life or living a life called as nai...

It's like a zillion times in thise meets post bup he would randomly live a moment exact same moment that he did back then before bup and then mention bout how good it felt but you reliving the same feel same moment over again with just that Khushi ofnyou getting to relive another one of those most loved things bout him.....

That one meet was your life absolute state of happiness and life i say!!!!!

Soooo yaaaaah again where to where only it went!!!!

AGAIN!!!!!!!