chating with mom, working out, watching movies or series, learning to cook smthing, cleaning the house sorting things out but all it comes to those moments that are the real you that you connect withthe actual the most.....
its where you find you.... lose yourself, and find you...
moments where its just you his music and just you......
the most you !!!!!!!!!
its different now the moments that you spend with yourself rethinking it all over with his music working that bit of magic in allowing you to relive hhis every detail......
almost every nite this love to spend that time with yourself....
even if watching some movie the waaaaaaaay your mind suddenly drifts off n away to everything him.....
and everytime it does this one thing maybe you did lack in your love in loving him.....
you couldnt make him stay.....
there are things you dont wanna think or recall just so it dosnt hurt you anymore than what and how it did already.....
and then there is the mind that just does it own thing....
maybe you did lack smthing !!
and then there are moments where you sort of drag your mind out of it and go back to your safehouse side of the mind....
just reliving his love and then the waaaaaaaaay lilst of moments from back then lilst of his waaaaaaaays of loving you sort of connect reconnect with the moments from the dream.....
its like it still connects maybe again its your mind ofc,...
but the waaaaay it just still connects....
him doing the very things he usedto back then but the way the him from the dream is the him now.... the way he looks now the way it still feels that real like its for real.....
writing now reading your mind out now - ABSOLUTE MADNESS !!!!!!!!!!!
and then there are moments through the day even be it at home the lilst of ways that you feeeeel him be it in that hour of raining and listening to his music that one line i think about you when it rains and you feel the rain on your hand and face and just be looking at the birds trying to hide away from the rains.....
and every single time they spread their wings that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of his arms that visual of him raising his arms up above ready for a flight of his own..... you just standing there making the most of that moment of that visual of that moment of watching him transform into the most gorgeous bird ever !!!!!!!!!
to that one sec where amidst the pigeons there was this one his white bird that flies through zoooop bolke.... the white bird that he used to call as flying stars across the nite sky back then.....
to that moment today when playing his other now your most loved track the question you galti se click on some other link with same song and the song ends with lines most loved lines from the eternal sunshine movie....
I'm just happy... im exactly where i wanna be !!
the track the artist was in no way connected to the movie....
and finding that same track of his with his movie - magic !!
and the waaaaaaaaaaaay it that beauuuuuuuuuuuuutif you ully just connected with what and how you felt just days back waking up after having lived that moment with him......
just where and only where you always have wanted to be...!
or this moment smtime back the waaaaaaaay it just felt like he called out for you !!
its in these moments you sort of forget the reality cause thats the pure magic and beauty of moments like these.....
where logic mind disappears and all that stays is how and what it made you feel like...
and you just go with it, let it hold your hand away and pull you off n away from everything else.... and go closer to where and what means matters the most...
some moments the vibe of some moments is beyond you yourself !!
that strong feel of smthing that you feel from within like everything in you gets pulled by smthing like you can literally feel it rush through you all of you on the inside being pulled off n away.....
to, with and by a moment !!
its where you find you.... lose yourself, and find you...
moments where its just you his music and just you......
the most you !!!!!!!!!
its different now the moments that you spend with yourself rethinking it all over with his music working that bit of magic in allowing you to relive hhis every detail......
almost every nite this love to spend that time with yourself....
even if watching some movie the waaaaaaaay your mind suddenly drifts off n away to everything him.....
and everytime it does this one thing maybe you did lack in your love in loving him.....
you couldnt make him stay.....
there are things you dont wanna think or recall just so it dosnt hurt you anymore than what and how it did already.....
and then there is the mind that just does it own thing....
maybe you did lack smthing !!
and then there are moments where you sort of drag your mind out of it and go back to your safehouse side of the mind....
just reliving his love and then the waaaaaaaaay lilst of moments from back then lilst of his waaaaaaaays of loving you sort of connect reconnect with the moments from the dream.....
its like it still connects maybe again its your mind ofc,...
but the waaaaay it just still connects....
him doing the very things he usedto back then but the way the him from the dream is the him now.... the way he looks now the way it still feels that real like its for real.....
writing now reading your mind out now - ABSOLUTE MADNESS !!!!!!!!!!!
and then there are moments through the day even be it at home the lilst of ways that you feeeeel him be it in that hour of raining and listening to his music that one line i think about you when it rains and you feel the rain on your hand and face and just be looking at the birds trying to hide away from the rains.....
and every single time they spread their wings that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of his arms that visual of him raising his arms up above ready for a flight of his own..... you just standing there making the most of that moment of that visual of that moment of watching him transform into the most gorgeous bird ever !!!!!!!!!
to that one sec where amidst the pigeons there was this one his white bird that flies through zoooop bolke.... the white bird that he used to call as flying stars across the nite sky back then.....
to that moment today when playing his other now your most loved track the question you galti se click on some other link with same song and the song ends with lines most loved lines from the eternal sunshine movie....
I'm just happy... im exactly where i wanna be !!
the track the artist was in no way connected to the movie....
and finding that same track of his with his movie - magic !!
and the waaaaaaaaaaaay it that beauuuuuuuuuuuuutif you ully just connected with what and how you felt just days back waking up after having lived that moment with him......
just where and only where you always have wanted to be...!
or this moment smtime back the waaaaaaaay it just felt like he called out for you !!
its in these moments you sort of forget the reality cause thats the pure magic and beauty of moments like these.....
where logic mind disappears and all that stays is how and what it made you feel like...
and you just go with it, let it hold your hand away and pull you off n away from everything else.... and go closer to where and what means matters the most...
some moments the vibe of some moments is beyond you yourself !!
that strong feel of smthing that you feel from within like everything in you gets pulled by smthing like you can literally feel it rush through you all of you on the inside being pulled off n away.....
to, with and by a moment !!
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