there are moments you live and the one today being different that beautifully different cause of the situation state of mind you are in now.....
and you live or experience smthing like this like you were standing there and all you could see was Him..... without even having to shut your eyes..... you could just see that moment from back then with Him.... his sound his face his smile the way he was looking at you that backdrop of the spencers behind under the gym....
like everything around before and inside of you did become that beauuuuuuuuuuuutifully just Him....
and the after of living a moment like that one you just couldnt deal or make sense....
like you needed those few hours to get back to being normal....
and here now with that news of how its become this smthing that humankind hasnt experienced and that need to write out the state of mind and then this moment and now this feeeeeeeeeeeeling after writing and reliving it now again as you write.....
how it all feeeeeels that much stronger deeper now as you relive it as you write.....
like def deeper than it felt just sitting by yourself with his music playing hoping it makes it better.... makes it makes you feel back to a lil more normal.... cause when that level of sudden missing hits you you just knowwwwwwwwwww how only worse it keeps getting from thereon....
to now again all it took was reliving it again as you write and this feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling again now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
smthings !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling right now.....
with just flashes of him rushing through with every blink as you blink.....
and you live or experience smthing like this like you were standing there and all you could see was Him..... without even having to shut your eyes..... you could just see that moment from back then with Him.... his sound his face his smile the way he was looking at you that backdrop of the spencers behind under the gym....
like everything around before and inside of you did become that beauuuuuuuuuuuutifully just Him....
and the after of living a moment like that one you just couldnt deal or make sense....
like you needed those few hours to get back to being normal....
and here now with that news of how its become this smthing that humankind hasnt experienced and that need to write out the state of mind and then this moment and now this feeeeeeeeeeeeling after writing and reliving it now again as you write.....
how it all feeeeeels that much stronger deeper now as you relive it as you write.....
like def deeper than it felt just sitting by yourself with his music playing hoping it makes it better.... makes it makes you feel back to a lil more normal.... cause when that level of sudden missing hits you you just knowwwwwwwwwww how only worse it keeps getting from thereon....
to now again all it took was reliving it again as you write and this feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling again now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
smthings !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling right now.....
with just flashes of him rushing through with every blink as you blink.....
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