one in a moment...!

 Post workout usual yoga stretch and stuff and this one track usually during the stretches that you play on....

In that head down on the mat spine stretch mode eyes shut and that one moemnt the way you could feel your forehead bumping into his forehead like you could see him looking you in the eye direct like he was there in that very moment one with you could sense feel his breathe that close to you feel his forehead over your like it wasn't the floor or the mat it was his forehead that you bump away your forehead with......ittaa strong it felt ki you try to go closer again the second time cause of your belief of that two times forehead bump thing and he just smiles that ditto smile of his away and the way it shakes you up and you lift your head off......and realise the irony of that moemnt of you just did in your waking state who bhi!!!!!

It's that fine line of difference charlie of that moemnt of realisation of you just felt of what you just did even with your eyes wide open...cause that one moemnt THAT one fraction of a moemnt felt that strong!!!!!

Like he was actually there with you in that very moment one with you as you lean towards him...

U know it's all your mind just as it's been all these years and you also are trying your best possible for the first time in all these years.....but pata nai kyu charlie nai hora merse.......!

Like for the first time in all these years you are genuinely trying your best but it just is not working!!!!!

Like you just couldn't help the way he felt that real cause you were that wide awake post training like mind body all of you that awake and yet you felt him lived him that strongly that felt sooo real!!!!!!!

Even reliving it as you write now this feeeeling hows that even possible!!!!!!!

Like I said to live someone...!

The way that one moment of living his beauuutiful details from that upclose always takes you back to that one moemnt at his dd colony place around same time that year in July end holding his face away livinf his details with your finger and as you tell him you look beautiful the waaaaay his face transforms away that beauuuutifully!!!!!!

Again when you didn't want to go that way of writing and the way just that one touch like always holds your hand and off you goo!!!!!!

Something's you didn't wanna write relive feeeel away cause you know........and without even intending to write that one moment the way anything to do with him fills you away with alllllllllllll of him and HOW!!!!!!!!!